be by your side...

//.tired

2007-10-16T00:24:00.001+08:00

good nights.

//.pbc

2007-08-19T17:26:00.000+08:00

another week! basically im too lazy to type much. its another lazy sleep-in sunday for me. took half day on fri =P then near-evening had a bit of shock here and there, before meeting the pbc grp at city hall. was supposed be an outing (with a short 20 min meeting) and fireworks-watching, but dragged on a bit cos of some last-min stuff regarding the event. tsk tsk.

fireworks wasn't that splendid actually. more like leftovers from ndp sort of. but anyway the human traffic was crazy. i walked back to raffles, met up with des and ben, and we went to iguana (again!)

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drinks was crazy. we waited for happy hour and i drank more than i've ever before. but found the cheap deal anw. took wacky photos (there were only 3 of us) and with two waitress-friends of ben as well. went home in a drowsy state after that.....

iguana 170807 - photos

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pbc event on sat was crazy. last min stuff was managable. and the kids had loads of fun! =P

PBC with HIP 180707 - photos

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managed to koped some leftover foodstuff from pbc, and went to haiyen's place for supposed gathering. hahahaha. just realised we've really have very little time left to catch up with friends that are flying off. eeeeeeeeeeeee........

//.19

2007-08-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

i've turned 19!

lazy to blog about the weekend and all. knowing a few more frens and a bit more stuff than what i usally know. quite enriching lah. and what a small world this is.

thanks to those who celebrated my bdae, or send me well-wishes and wadever.

anw. my officer is hilarous. one of the fellow nsf was complaining about him getting a lot of work at his branch, and says want to come our branch (jokingly), and my officer was like.. "ya lor. come here can play games and sleep (stares at me), quite slack rite?"

my reply (in my head) was.. pyseh no space liao..

no i didn't voice it out not because i was feeling pyseh or anything. cos at that time i was deeply engrossed in something on my computer screen. hahahaha.

that joke for the day sorta calm me down a bit.

//.overdue

2007-07-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

like my blog's half-dead already. been too lazy to even click the link to this page and update.

nothing much is happening i suppose. life goes on as usual rite? =)

one of the few huangcheng ppl has flown off alr. sighhh. wonder if i ever will end up studying local or overseas. the decision is still not met yet, what with so many things going on around me.

just realised it's been a while since i last contacted many people. but wells. been packed to the brim alr. haikel im not that free oki!

oh harry potter book came out just last sat, like 5 days ago. i'm already finishing my second reading of it. phews. what with staying up till 5am on sat just to finish it. then did the second round (to capture details) in office this week. hahaha i shan't comment much about the plot. generally for my second reading i won't touch the last 5 pages. i think it's nonsensical anw.

but wells i guess one good thing is snape is a good guy, dumbledore isn't the 100% perfect person since no such ppl exists in this world anw, and small characters from book 1 appear and they ended up having everything to do with the whole story anyway. it's like remembering all the characters and not let them get lost, no matter how small and unimportant they are.

well the sad thing is how rowling chose to knock people off just like that. with a flash of green light, a shriek, and he/she/it is gone. less than 3 lines i suppose. lost track of the number of people who died. but anw with more people alive, there'll be more loose ends to tie up. hahahahaha. im so sadistic.

enough of that. tml dental appt again =/

anw highfive grad is coming! yay~ *so excited*

//.MC

2007-07-10T14:14:00.000+08:00

yay. got 2 days MC for food poisoning. note that irony.

it's kinda gross. but yeah went to office on monday morning and puke just shortly after i reached. and then i had the runs and puked again. so it was really shang4 tu4 xia4 xie4. =.=

reported to MO and yeah. given the rest of the day off but fever went up by evening. so went to see the family doc and given another 2 days' MC.

eeps. the runs are still coming =/

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speaking of which. we went kboxing on sunday! so ah toot. muahaha. oki shall not comment too much.

photos photos~

hmm.. i was struggling to reach THAT height

a little salt and pepper in our lives. LOL. i was bored =.=

vann is a table. now reserved. HAHA

me and mother. hahaha we dun ren4 each other liaoz.

the 4 of us! =)

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oki so it's a promise. one outing to come before the huangcheng ppl who are flying off flies off =)

//.week

2007-07-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

it's been a long, tired, eventful, and (somewhat) depressing week.

but yup! at least i have things to look forward this weekend.

for one. a westie meeting up with many easties for kbox.

lalalalalalala.

and next week is hellish =P

(i'm just blogging to keep the blog alive)

//.notright

2007-06-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

it probably occured to me that i shouldnt have attended the meeting today. not when things aren't going very well on my side, and my thoughts were not exactly on the right track, and my mood wasn't exactly fantastically well.

work was mundane, boring, and stressful. ironically. but yes. i probably managed to keep a smile on as much as possible. and yes. that's probably why i was happily irritated.

phew. yet

//.busyweek

2007-06-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

what a week! yar tts last week. had been too busy + tired to blog. plus photos took some time to upload.

well i guess pictures will be more than enough. mos, mayday concert, camp vivant. phews.

too lazy to actually bother with the captions. so don't mind me. some photos are just. photos.

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mos

dance floor in the background~

after waking up from the sleepover at Ben's

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JUMP! mayday concert!

the 3 hyper ppl who went for concert!

that's how packed it is~

guai shou enters!

ah shin enters!

guai shou~!!!

think tts masa if i rmb correctly?

wu yue tian on stage =D

wan an di qiu ren

sun wu kong =D

erm...? forgot the song!

darn. but anw its nice lah. =D

masa again!

guai shou =)

guan you!

shi tou~

shi tou, guai shou, and ah shin =D

masa on the keyboard. he composed (and sang during the concert) zui zhong yao de xiao shi! =D

the band singing zui zhong yao de xiao shi

wo you chu lian le!

ashin!

wad song can this be but... lian ai ing!

the crowd doing L-O-V-E. hahahahaha

zhong jie gu dan!

end of concert =(

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Camp Vivant 07 =D

SHREK 3!

war games

hahahahahaha. the famous photo of hariz =P

bananas of the world unite!

shorts pulled down. hur hur hur.

ready...

and going...

GOAL!!!

WHOA!

pals forever =D

dancer of the camp. HAHA

after life journey, one of the things that really bonded the bananas tgt =D

discussing campfire event =D

NEMO!

after campfire nite =D

emo-ing at night trail

a normal banana shot!

wad are we looking at?!

last but not least... the camp facils and camp com =D

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wad a week! this week is work work work. i mean in office. sian. so much work to clear all at one go. hur hur hur. civil service =.=

dragon boating this sat! =D and hopefully a bananas outing!!!

WE ROCK~

//.refresh

2007-05-23T15:51:00.000+08:00

for being there when you need me, and be absent when you're needed.

it's such a shame when you find yourself no longer able to understand yourself anymore.

at work, with friends, anywhere.

i'm becoming tactless. and a mask is put on.

and there's no receiving end to my truth anyway.

who knows what crazy thoughts have been running through my mind all these while?

thanks so very much.

//.我怀念的

2007-05-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

我怀念的

歌手：孙燕姿
专辑：逆光
作词：姚若龙
作曲：李偲菘

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥

谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

//.facade

2007-05-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

i'm still alive. just lifeless. that's such an irony. but i guess life can just get worse for me if it really wants to be cruel.

it's that innate human instinct afterall. after living for so many years we are still that self-centred creature.

i think i need to read more. i'm becoming incoherent.

but wait. what lies beneath all that? is it an obligation society brings down upon us, or are we unconsciously influenced by those looks from people in the world we live in, so much so that we are at the mercy of people non other than ourselves?

i am still that incoherent.

it's just that hard to find someone to talk to.

how many worlds are there? the one where only i exist, the one where the rest of the world lives in, the one in which the world and i clash, the one where i am an integral part of the world, the one in which the world is an intergral part of me, and the one in which there is nothingness...?

sometimes i wonder what is the true purpose of sharing. explicitly it means giving part of what you have to those who, unfortunately, happen to not have it. yet beneath that simple action could be for that purpose of self-satisfaction. that volunteering is ultimately a selfish act.

holy. i'm too extreme.

for those who have been reading up till here and been lost in my senseless thoughts. try to find the crux of it all.

ultimately as you grow older, there're less things to talk about with your peers. and that small number of topics you actually do talk about, just seem so distant from your heart.

//.growingup

2007-05-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

what a weekend. highfive tea session passed on saturday. we still have 2 sessions to go. wells. things should turn out fine ba. haha.

then again after the morning session some thoughts ran through me. and after the afternoon session i just felt really horrible.

that i shan't elaborate.

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and so. today was the creative session. and yes. the topics are as thought-provoking as ever. and by the end of the session i felt as though my brain was fried, though i think i didn't really contribute much at the session. tsk.

looking forward to the full script.

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on my way home i saw an ex-schoolmate, which i actually dao-ed. i think it's just a lazy-to-walk-up feeling. like oops.

but somehow i find that as we grow up we find less and less things to talk about with our friends, especially with those that you were close to in the past, but haven't seen/contacted each other for quite some time already.

i think its dumb yeah. but i feel that its quite pointless to be catching up with some frens when the next time u talk to that person is probably when you happen to meet him/her again on the streets some years later, and then the whole cycle repeats. hah.

how superficial again.

i guess it's hard for me to hold tight of things, i just let them slip away from my hands and i won't even know.

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work again tml.

and the cycle repeats.

//.hiatus-over

2007-04-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

finally back to blogging. just finished xx神童. wells. not that i really did a lot. just an intensive two-week period of late nights and early mornings. 8 shows. the crew is small. at least i kinda enjoyed it. now when i listen to jolin's 舞娘 there's something for me to laugh about. hohoho.

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《盛夏光年》is coming to singapore. it's one surprising news for me. for one thing. the movie was made last year, and screened in december 2006 in taiwan. its april 2007 now. for another. this movie is about teenage life + friendship + love + homosexuality. definitely surprised that it managed to pass through the censorships.

read the book twice already. and watched the movie on a website similarly to youtube. no. i prefer the book cos the lines are so... 贴切？can't seem to find the right words to describe either. but when i read the book i felt that somehow this story will do much better when put on stage than on screen. there're some things that the screen can't capture, and yes, i think that in the movie, some of the touch has been lost.

had been indulging in some of the lines these few weeks. those that i'll probably never forget.

行星绕着恒星打转，而彗星只负责划过天边。

familiar?

how the boundary between friendship and love has no clear definition. no. not just between the same gender mind you. don't just think about that. and yet sometimes after you get into a relationship you realise things just seem to stay the way it was. or maybe both parties are better off being friends?

that boundary is just a thin, blur line.

and talking about sex censorship, i wonder how much of the movie is going to be censored. it's only 1 hour plus anyway. hur hur.

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on a lighter note. went for my psc interview today. a panel of 12 (did i miscount?). half hour of torture, and i felt that i'm not cut out for psc. probably the interviewers thought so too. well at least for this interview i felt quite proud of myself, saying what i really feel and not putting on a show just to impress the panel. well it's over anyway. so yes now i'm waiting for the rejection letter. hohoho.

just when i thought there's a long break for me coming up, the email brought be back to reality. highfive tea sessions are just 2 weeks away. =X

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and a new MV is up!

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摩托车日记

歌手：五月天
曲：怪兽
词：阿信

横越过南美洲
一万两千里的贫穷
我骑著狂妄的一股冲动
无垠的大地啊种不出一个梦
只看到那无数的
饥饿的孩子和绝望佃农

呜... 谁在等待英雄
呜... 我把左轮瞄准无情天空

谁愿意和我
一起写一个传说
你还梦不梦疯不疯
还有没有当初浪漫温柔
谁愿意和我
一起写一个传说
就算谁能消灭了我
却夺不走我们作梦的自由

印地斯的天空
千年没有出现彩虹
失业的老人在弹著斑鸠
谁露宿在街头谁却住在皇宫
日记上写满了梦想
我决定要用这一生背诵

呜... 谁在等待英雄
呜... 我把左轮瞄准无情天空

谁愿意和我
一起写一个传说
你还梦不梦疯不疯
还有没有当初浪漫温柔
谁愿意和我
一起写一个传说
就算谁能消灭了我
却夺不走我们作梦的自由

呜... 谁在呼喊自由
呜... 我用生命挑战宿命宇宙

谁愿意和我
一起写一个传说
你还梦不梦疯不疯
还有没有当初浪漫温柔
谁愿意和我
一起写一个传说
就算谁能消灭了我
却夺不走我们作梦的自由

//.longing

2007-04-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

been a very long time since i last blogged a proper entry of thoughts. i'm feeling like so lazy these few weeks. think ns made me this way. hoho.

had a few thought-provoking msn chats with a few people recently. can't really recall the exact content (and yes they're thought-provoking but i can't recall them). oh boy i'm so contradictory. my memory's bad. takes me one whole day to remember one name by heart. and need to be reminded of things time and again. must be ns making me dumb and dumber.

this entry is getting pointless. i've half the heart to just delete everything now. but can't bear to do so. think i'm just being self-delusionary.

there're things that i'm still doing, but no longer out of belief, just our of habit. don't know how many people can understand what i'm talking about (or me at all anyway). but yeah, think my actions are not reflecting my beliefs afterall?

self-delusionary. yes. that's the word.

and recently saw some break-ups and patch-ups (as usual). the modern times where people break and patch like some daily routine. or worse still, break and be in another relationship like they went for an emergency op and haf their heart's changed within that few.. seconds. literally.

pffffft.

but it's a matter of interests and passion. how we lose touch with certain things for that short while over some small matters, and then you lose the feeling for it toally (in case you're wondering, i've moved on to another new subject altogether). can't be helped? no, it just speaks much of you.

that much.

and i was just so bored yesterday i looked through all my emails. literally all, both in hotmail and in gmail. close to a thousand. some related to work, some forwarded mails, some personal messages.

and then i realised some of the correspondents will just be a small part of my life. they come in here and left without a word. just like how all of us a just a small little thing in everyone's big world.

we always think of this topic. friends forever. is it true? hohoho. nobody knows until you're old i guess.

it's just the same thing with passion/interest (whatever you call it). 3, 4 years ago i wanted badly to be a ci and serve rvnp with all my heart. 3, 4 years later when i look back, i find it pure dumb. it's not really what it is, but who made it for you. ultimately it's not the things pulling you back, but the people.

we always leave someplace with a lot of good memories, but yet that little bit of regrets. yet sometimes that little bit of regrets matter to us that much that they bug us and refuse to be forgotten, so much so that we choose to forget everything instead.

it's silly. we're at that age where we struggle hard to hold on to things so tight until we get suffocated. and yet as we grow older, we must learn to let go. there's so much words we talked about during our teens, but as we move on and grow up, the words we have are no longer for people around us, and we find that we are talking to ourselves more than the people around us.

when we're just little kids, we cry to gain the attention of our parents. now that we've grown up, the tears are meant to be shed in solitude.

we all have our little secrets. and these secrets are used to exchange for a true friendship. how true it is then, that often the best-est of our friends never do know your deepest secrets.

no one knows, except yourself.

//.changed

2007-04-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

oh just to keep people updated. my posting has been shifted from cmpb to mindef. but still the same anyway =P

//.partyyy

2007-03-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

partying away the last 2 days of my block leave. argh. 8 to 5 job starting soon (what am i complaining about?!)

friday had sif appreciation team! feels great to see ppl from both teams 2 and 4 tgt! and we being typical singaporeans (haha!) queued up to take photos with the president. hur hur hur -.-

appreciation tea is just an excuse to get everybody tgt~! lol~! but anw after tt we became veh suagu and went to this garden and took loads of photos. lazy to upload all. so here's a few.. hahaha.

me and annie acting... bloated -.-

me and hongkhiang.. hohoho.. he still behaves like himself at the reception =.=

the YOUNG ppl from c2c team 4!

and the group shot! mix of team 2 and team 4 ppl =D

after that went to drink teh tarik at laupasat. talk and talk and talk.. feels great =D

then went to laiyee's party on sat night. first time at such an occasion! then again, birthday is just another excuse to hold a party! lol~ =P anw the team was black magick and everyone was to wear black! hohoho.. and the place was like decorated soo eerie-ly =.=

this is just how dark the place was...

and me annie and qinying tried taking a photo of ourselves, ourselves -.-

oh and this voodoo doll (or whatever) are just one of the many decorations hanging in mid air ard the place. eerie eh?

and we drew on the wall! muahaha.. here's a quote (which i kop-ed from juaykai's msn nick. hehehe)

and the c2c logo! =P

well the party was fun. talked and got to know a few people. haha. got to know more things, at least about studying in australia =X

left early to meet the section 1 ppl (it was supposed to be platoon 3 but the other section ppl went home alr -.-) and the 3 muskerteers (weiheng, ivan, tham) were happily waiting at tcc drinking coffee when we were planning to go to a pub =.= and some idiot (his email anyway) said eskibar was closed when it wasn't -.- but anyway we went there and holy. the temperature was really zero degrees. freezing mad.

but wells we had a couple of drinks and took loads of gayyy photos. hur hur hur. see wad ns did to us?!

see the mist? that's how cold it is =.=

us posing.. with our drinks >.<

omg we are totally unglam. =X

here's a proper group shot. hahaha~!

but wells. end of party (for now!). work week ahead. anyone want to watch wizard of oz by yppae? hahaha its at vt next weekend. hohoho.

cmpb here i come~! wheeeeeeee...

//.vocation

2007-03-24T14:47:00.000+08:00

full-timer at cmpb defense tower 2. hohoho.

can't be any slacker i think =.=

//.crazy

2007-03-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

had this crazy thought while crossing the road today.

but anyway i went to buy christina aguilera's new album. like holy. first english album i've bought since eons ago.

and here's this touching mv that my bunk was talking about sometime during our bmt.

and past few days spent on outings and stuff. im darker again from the sentosa outing with half-platoon 3. lost my voice from the k-ster with huangcheng peeps (and guangfeng's miserable treat). a bit fatter from the potluck with 4a. tuts tuts. okay im typing crap.

going for mayday concert. june 2! bought the most ex ($150) tickets! muahaha. somemore paid first for the other 2 friends. that's like $450 at one go. ouch.

another week of block leave to go. phew. firefly interview. k box. one dinner gathering after another. hai. need sometime for myself.

i need a break.

i just wish someone would knock me down.

//.huangcheng07

2007-03-11T12:02:00.000+08:00

can't really describe the feeling in the end after watching ytd's performance. maybe it's just the same every year. no matter how things will just that few hours ago, things just always fall into the correct places ultimately.

i think it's just that 26 years of spirit that never dies off. while the current batch sang 华初的歌 from onstage, and us, the seniors, stood up to sing along from the audience seats, it's just that bit of back-at-home feeling all over again.

i guess even if one day hwachong stops producing huangcheng in vt, there will always be this group of people that will come together to make things happen. and ytd it happened all over again.

no matter what happens today during the last 2 shows, what matters is that we all know what all this is for. not for a perfect show, but to keep the show going.

jia you juniors =)

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and some videos that sort of brought back that bit of memories from those days. watching them again before i go back to camp. at least i won't have the feeling that i'm missing out on the finale of huangcheng 07.

//.忘詞

2007-02-25T14:04:00.000+08:00

erm. ns cant be any slacker i think. =)

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五月天 - 忘詞

嗯嗯搭啦我又忘了
我应该应该应该应该唱什黱
我应该应该应该应该怎黱作

嗯嗯搭啦想起来了
我好像好像好像好像应该说
我好想好想好想好想对你说

在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过彩排过
这个时候却又说不出口

你你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在这一秒我一定要说
就算失败也不沈默

你你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘詞我噢噢噢

嗯嗯搭啦想起来了
我好像好像好像好像应该说
我好想好想好想好想对你说

上一句好像是有关你的形容
下一句好像希望你能答应我
我练习过彩排过
这个时候却又说不出口

你你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在这一秒我一定要说
就算失败也不沈默

你你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘詞我噢噢噢

在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过彩排过
这个时候却又说不出口

你你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘詞我噢噢噢

你你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在这一秒我一定要说
就算失败也不沈默

//.最重要的小事

2007-02-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

my favourite song! the MV is finally out~

//.last day

2007-01-25T17:14:00.000+08:00

last post for many weeks to come i think. but anyway i've posted a happy high nice song onto my blog! =)

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寵上天

歌手：五月天
作詞：阿信
作曲：阿信

你愛看鬼片又怕看鬼片就要我陪
坐在你身邊很想告訴你我比你還怕鬼
我無時無刻都無怨無悔讓你無憂又無慮每一天

你一個口令我一個動作絕不拖延
你一個皺眉我三條黑線整個高度警戒
我無時無刻都無怨無悔讓你無法又無天的撒野

是我的朋友就是我的 baby
就算你打我踢我也都 ok
就是要寵你寵你寵上了天
天堂整個搬到你身邊

是一座堡壘是一種哲學我們之間
是一股熱血是一句乾杯也是一種永遠
我無時無刻都無怨無悔讓愛無窮又無盡萬萬歲

是我的朋友就是我的 baby
就算你打我踢我也都 ok
就是要寵你寵你寵上了天
天堂整個搬到你身邊

是我的朋友就是我的 baby
你想要蹂躪虐待也都隨便
就是要寵你寵你寵上了天
讓誰都羨慕都讚美
讓誰都傻眼

是我的朋友就是我的 baby
就算你打我踢我也都 ok
就是要寵你寵你寵上了天
天堂整個搬到你身邊

是我的朋友就是我的 baby
你想要蹂躪虐待也都隨便
就是要寵你寵你寵上了天
讓誰都羨慕都讚美
讓誰都傻眼

啦啦啦...
讓誰都傻眼
啦啦啦...

//.thoughts

2007-01-11T14:11:00.000+08:00

when i dun feel lyk blogging i dun blog for weeks. and when i feel lyk blogging i blog almost everyday -.-

reached home at 3am this morning. after work. 6 per hour. horrible hours and not-so-very-good environment, smoky, vulgar.. probably a job i won't recommend to ppl i know. but then again, it's an eye-opener for me i guess, to let me know how fucked up life can be. (pardon the swearing but yes i can't find a more suitable word)

okie. i think the bottomline is. i miss school.

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but somehow i'm quite glad, to know where i stand in this world.

我確定已把這個回憶抛到很遠，很遠。

行星繞著恆星打轉，而彗星只需要負責劃過天空。你以變成了我生命的一顆彗星。

這是你自己的選擇。

//.work

2007-01-10T16:18:00.000+08:00

haven't been updating.. oops.. but anw.. i've started work! working for 3 weeks is better than nothing.. hahahaha

my mum's asking me to buy new year clothes.. no money =X oki i spent my first week's wage alr.. =P ns in 2 weeks' time.. mentally prepared i guess.. hahahaha.. hope i can do some work during these 2 years and learn something as well.. hehe..

4a chalet.. its been some time since i last saw those ppl.. quite a slack chalet, but at least have some time to catch up with the ppl.. hahaha..

been talking to a hc senior ytd.. haish.. sparked off some thoughts.. lazy to blog.. till then~!

one of my fav songs from the new album..

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最重要的小事

歌手：五月天
专辑：为爱而生
作曲: 玛莎
作词: 阿信

我走过动荡日子
追过梦的放肆
穿过多少生死

却假装若无其事
穿过半个城市
只想看你样子

这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事...

我就算壮烈前世
征服滚滚乱世
万人为我写诗

而幸福却是此时
静静帮你提著
哈罗凯蒂袋子

这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事...

最重要的事...

你笑得像个孩子
每个平凡小事
变成永恒故事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事...

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//.為愛而生

2007-01-05T11:01:00.000+08:00

//.back

2006-12-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

im back! merry (belated) xmas people, and happy (advance) new year.

[edit] switched off my local phone from 15th to 26th december. so any SMS-es sent to me during this time wasn't received. hahahaha. pyseh ppl if u've sent xmas wishes i won't know. [/edit]

ask me about the trip? still waiting for the photos. can't describe much.
一言难尽.

and just in case ppl are curious. yeah there was an earthquake (we felt tremors only and i slept through it) and our area wasn't flooded. all safe and sound. just a bit more tanned =P

wait for photos.

meanwhile. wait for ns. =) holidays are almost over. but wait! no more school so will it make any difference? probably. adult fare soon -.-

im home(aceh)-sick. =X

//.holidays

2006-12-12T13:49:00.000+08:00

i'm soooo lazy to update. finally got a half-day break today, going out again at night. feeling damn guilty now, cos realised i haven't got much chance to have home-cooked meals since As ended. tsk tsk tsk.

can't remember what happened since As ended. ERM. come to think of it.. it's only been 3 weeks. feel like it's been months since chem S ended. hohoho. i dun wanna take back my results!!! arghhhhh. RAWR. the As suck.

remember going to Vivo many many times alr. am proud to say that i've roughly explored the whole place, and almost visited more than half the shops there! yeah! still remember me and vann and cher and vincent went to a few shops and try clothes.. just for fun!! hahahahaha.. then there was prom which i didn't go. went out to K! stayed over outside, sleeping in the streets. woots. after that went des house for gathering..

went abc concert!!! didn't realise the tickets was premiun type. i was soooooooo close to mayday lah!! got loads and loads and loads of close-up shots!!! yay!!! hahahahaha omg im going crazy.. still remember the day after concert was even crazier. had 4 events packed in 1 single day, not that it helped much when i slept late after the concert, and woke up early to send vincent off. then end of the day still have to rush out some stuff and ended up sleeping very late again. woots.

stayover at my house ytd. ended up didn't watch much, just played and played. and stoned and slept a bit. hahaha. went to HC ytd again. to collect some ping pong balls. think i have too many now >.< oh i've changed my blog music!!! =D lan gf i want my book..

photos! random stuff.. over the hols events. realised i nvr take photos for some of the stuff.. but wells.. the most precious moments are those in your heart =)

neoprints while shopping with vann cher vincent.. oki.. more like window shopping.. oh and i so disgraced myself at ai qing hai that nite.. rawrrr..

singapore rock!!! i look damn damn damn damn damn old..

sending vincent off.. this photo is the rv ppl who knows vincent.. muahaha..

me and vincent at K ster on prom day.. okii i realised the photos aren't in order =P this is before he flew back.. duh

while roaming the streets on prom nite so the oac ppl~ took photos with alice and weiqi.. goodness.. i noe weiqi since.. kindergarten! same class in fuhua some more.. hahahaha sadly we haven't taken a photo tgt all these yrs.. and i didnt even haf a hp number till tt nite.. -.-'

gathering at desmond's house.. hahahahaha..

and this is the cars that the girls made while at desmond's house.. hahaha the board game quite cute lahz.. and we bought tt for des.. lol~

oki here comes the emphasis of the entry.. photos from the concert!!! =D

supposedly pingguan's shuai-est moment.. he sang shen bian!!!

ah shin!!!

monster!!!

stone!!!

masa!!!

guan you!!!

more photos go to the links section on the left =)

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away to aceh from 15th dec to 26th dec.. bye!

//.nearingtheend

2006-11-18T13:33:00.000+08:00

chem paper 1 was nonsensical (spelt correctly?). they set an MCQ paper on a separate afternoon actually for quite an obvious reason. it's gonna be hard so be prepared. but anyway i think none of us bothered anyway, since most of the PCME kids end on this very special day.

darn the s papers. mr loy just sms-ed me what i should concentrate on. and goodness that's a lot to research, and memorise, and try to understand.

i so love my blogskin! hahaha i think i was getting sick of brown. oh and i modified the skin a bit to suit my style. hehehe. pardon me. but of course was so damn guilty cos i spent the whole afternoon doing it when i was supposed to be studying for the MCQs. wheeeeee.

issit 6dm³ or 9dm³? seems lyk most got 9. =X oh what the heck.

went to fish and co ytd, then walk walk ard and left early while the rest went to play pool (my As aren't really over yet). today having family dinner so by right i should be fighting for the extra time to mug. and why in the world am i blogging here? muahaha. 4 days! 2 papers! i hope i can answer at least half the chem s qns. and write a more than 5 pieces of paper (for a 100 mark paper, that's very little). post-As post-As post-As! here i come! =X

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i found out who did whatever it was. hah. don't know if i should be happy or not. but anw it's all over already. why must you do something to put a halt to everything? issit worth it? things were okay you know. okay. but yeah now it's no longer salvagable, i guess.

//.chills

2006-11-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

okie maybe i should chill a bit. things have been restored across all my stuff. no info lost. i'll probably take it as someone whom i know that's playing a practical joke on me. whatever the case, i hope that whoever he/she is will just come and tell me that he/she was the culprit.

but of course if nothing happens over the next few days (i.e. i still don't know who he/she is), i'll just take it that someone was attempting to make use of my email account to do some fishy stuff, and make an official police report? (okay it sounds serious, but considering that i use my email account to do lots of stuff it's better to be safe than sorry)

oh wells. better be some silly practical joker.

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on a much lighter note. (oh btw pardon me for swearing in the previous entry)

As are almost over! left with chem paper 1 (40 darn MCQs) and the S papers next week! hahaha already going out with the class tml (i think). saturday will be having family dinner. then mug sunday and monday (more like slacking). one S paper each. phews phews.

3 K-box sessions (and probably more) coming up! stay over. goong. movie outings. go out with 4a ppl. go out with highfive ppl (hey organise sb outings leh!). badminton with the old gang? aceh! then come back to singapore and slack. phews phews. suddenly not enough time to play.

okay As are not over yet. so it's politically wrong to be talking about all these.

so far i'm quite screwed for As. can't believe i mis-read the qns a few times throughout! lost many precious marks. and surprisingly i couldn't do many of the qns that was supposed to be easy. seriously i don't have as much confidence as i had for prelims. argh. this is bad.

econs was (in my opinion) the most horrid one. all 3 papers were tricky and unconventional (for physics p2 was terrible, chem p3 was quite dumb). arghhhhhh. i realised that for the 1st time i'm damn damn damn damn damn worried. totally lack confidence in everything. damn it. i might end up disappointing those people who have high hopes for me huh.

thank goodness my parents just wan me to pass the As, and not get 4As. =X

oh wells. it'll be 4 months of playing and slacking before i find out my result. meanwhile pray hard that the remaining papers are managable for me! =
i've changed my blogskin! finally not brown already! =D

//.hacked

2006-11-16T16:03:00.000+08:00

FUCK. someone hacked into my hotmail account. changed my livejournal password (so that he/she can read my private entries?).

but anyway i won't like this matter rest. reported the incident to microsoft hotmail already. just you wait.

//.colours

2006-11-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You feel utterly wretched - worn out. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as 'divine intervention'. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself - you have the ability so use it.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

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screw econs.

//.updates

2006-11-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

and so the monster As are upon us already. somehow it doesn't feel like i'm doing the As. argh. i may just end up screwing myself up.

math was ok. gp was bad and unpredictable. chem was unconventional and it's gonna stay this way (i think) for the other components. which gives me the creeps when i think of how it'll be like if physics and econs become 'unconventional'. woots.

results results results. how much do they matter when at the end of it u wont really get to apply more than half of what you're learning? =X omg this is so rubbish. i shldnt be blogging in the first place. note. it's 'shouldnt'. cos i 'should' be a guai kia and hitting the books, 'should' be mugging like mad, 'should' be burning the midnight oil, 'should' be giving in my best for the As, 'should' be...

of course the grades will all be useless if you can't interact with people and make friends. but then again some people make frens for ulterior motives. omg thats so disgusting. hahaha. sorry but i just detest such people. eeeew. once you're used up, you're out of the person's life like.. poof~! pui pui pui.

recently been going back to syc to study. some thing's changed, but some hasn't. i'm just glad things changed, cos can feel that my life condition has improved by so much. think we've all grown so much. so much so that small things don't really bother me anymore.

life's that. you know. it's with or without. don't force things. and don't force people into corners. we'll probably end up regreting it when our actions lead to dire consequences.

omg i'm like so cynical. should just shut up my blog when i can't really like.. blog my true feelings down without being insensitive to things around me? haish. i just dun like the idea that the blog has become a pathetic tool to shoot each other in the most subtle manner. pui.

arrrrhh.. i should either update my links or remove them totally. basically now the blogs i visit are those who's addresses i rmb alr~ woots. links are just a physical representative. just like some things are mere obligations done without the heart to do so.

omg im like so damn cynical. to hell with the books.

//.eve

2006-11-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

21 days to the end.

//.quiz

2006-10-28T15:58:00.000+08:00

After you die...
Heaven

After death, you will exist in heaven. Everything and everyone you love will constantly surround you for all of eternity. You lucky scoundrel.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

//.tireds

2006-10-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

盛夏光年 is a gay show >.< but it has a nice plot. read the lyrics of the song (from my previous post). very meaningful! hahaha.

lan guang feng. go buy from the dvd taiwan. i know it's ur type of show~!

aiyah. everything talk after As. 6 days to GP! got so much to look forward to. aceh, outings, kbox, gong~!

woots.

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i'm just tired. the feeling.

of being thrown around.

//.盛夏光年

2006-10-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

new song! =) lyrics below..

盛夏光年
词曲: 阿信
演唱: 五月天

我骄傲的破坏
我痛恨的平凡
才想起那些是我最爱

让盛夏去贪玩
把残酷的未来
狂放到光年外

(而现在)
放弃规则放纵去爱
放肆自己放空未来
我不转弯我不转弯
我不转弯我不转弯

让定律更简单
让秩序更混乱
这样的青春我才喜欢

让盛夏去贪玩
把残酷的未来
狂放到光年外

(而现在)
放弃规则放纵去爱
放肆自己放空未来
我不转弯我不转弯
我不转弯我不转弯

我要我疯我要我爱就是
我要我疯我要我爱现在

一万首的mp3
一万次疯狂的爱
灭不了一个渺小的孤单

我要我疯我要我爱就是
我要我疯我要我爱现在

盛夏的一场狂欢
来到了光年之外
长大难道是人必经的溃烂

放弃规则放纵去爱
放肆自己放空未来
我不转弯我不转弯
我不转弯我不转弯

我不转弯我不转弯

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10 days left to start. 30 days to end!

//.lastday

2006-10-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

my enlistment has been fixed. 26 jan. there're joys and disappointment about such a late date. wont elaborate much. just pray hard.

anw last day of hc life~ okay that was last friday. i think it's amazing how last day of hc is so different from last day of rv. no tears, not much of that 'last day' feeling. but i think it's quite sad that somehow, we're no longer students anymore. haha. much as i say i'm not that happy in hc compared to rv, but i think some things just give that tinge of bu she de. something i know other schools can't give.

photos say so much more than words. a bit of photo entry here, of s66 and huangcheng. i went to dig out the huangcheng 05 photos and scanned them in!

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first is the class that i've spent 2 years with. hahaha. i think the more memorable ones i haf ish the bdae outing last and this yr.. cos my bdae mahz. okii so bhb~

orientation 2005. i tink we've changed a lot. -.-"

the damn unglam photos. hahaha though i dun haf a lot~ but still rmb the one where guatpei and yanyun (my pseudo-classmate) trying to act lyk they drinking water dropping from roof of busstop while i was acting lyk yalam girl. hahahahahah.

our class bench. the most empty one during promos last year. not really. just littered with bags while other benches are full of ppl mugging. hahaha~

gamblers alert!

us after sentosa outing 2005. phew. all burnt up. im just redder, and not any blacker..

mr smiley!

us at sentosa this yr. not tt burnt cos didnt soak in the sun long enuff. phew. i cant stand being any darker anw.

dinner at the dunno wad place at wheelock. hahaha.

national day celebrations~

the jumping shot!!!

oh manz.. the damn wacky photos at chem tutorial! hahahaha me and adrian gain mysterious powers and grew taller!

oki here's the formal photo~!

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huangcheng~! prob the reason y i stayed in hc after the 1st 3 months. hahaha. if not i'll prob be in poly now??

hahaha. the melodramatic scene 1..

i still rmb how hard it was to crawl b/w the legs. eew. sounds wrong. hahahaha.

the most unglam ever! hugging chair! weeeeeeeeee...

sadistic. tsk tsk.

our dao ZHUs! i rmb me and vann luv to call them that. haha. now two ZHUs botak liaoz.

at our dressing room. haha. still rmb the row of food that we bought, can stare, but cant eat.

kai sheng! i 'miss' my rv shorts. wahahahahahahaha.

if i rmb.. it's our 1st night out tgt at ps. haha. okii still in the rv shorts..

we are one big family~

our pai xi di dian and the stools. hahahaha..

outside vt!

somehow the experience for huangcheng 2005 and 2006 are veh different. the j1 year was more of fun, bonding and of course.. acting. hahaha. j2 huangcheng if fun in a different way. a lot more hardwork (and sweat and tears). still rmb the joy at xie mu was more of a satisfaction. hahaha. and im so glad things just turned out oki. phew.

i just love the lights! and the sculpture~ though sadly dun haf a full picture of it =X ooh and the pingpong balls!!! flybar go~! hahaha. oki maybe i dun miss the cues that much. phew~

zong you yi tian deng dao ni~!

us at huiqing!

me and yingjie! she act cute! im being me~

and of course still got the usual ppl that hang out tgt. countless K boxing and even more to come.. maf, huiqing. darnoe if there's still many of these outings in the future. hahaha ppl get attached and become *er-hemz* busy. but yeahhz i love the lian ai-ing~ and of course the aa screams and shouts when we're tgt.

those photos more or less sum up my 2 years of jc life. damn fast siaz. soon im gonna go botak and become seniors and old ppl liaoz. haix. but i'll miss those sweat tears and laughters of the school days. oh manz. nolstagic. =X

//.postprelims

2006-09-26T20:42:00.000+08:00

prelims are like.. finally over! but yeah school started one day after. =X but ytd was fun! 7.5 hours of K-stering. goodness we're nuts. and haha this time round we were determined to take a photo with jay chou. so here it goes..

at least the K-stering was before return of results. rubbish gp. but what the heck. 5 weeks left. must pia it out.

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time to post the answers to the quizz thingy in the previous post. the false statements are bolded.

1. i play the flute before - yes i did. during the ymd brass band days. hahaha.
2. i'm a malay - thanks to weihan. he actually said this statement was true. >.<
3. i love chocolates
4. the only country that i've been through so far (apart from singapore) is australia and indonesia - yes yes. oki im quite lousy. but i promise myself to travel more when i start earning a steady income. hahaha.
5. i want to take chemical engineering in university - i think i've had enough of science. but if left with no other choice i might end up doing a pure science degree. engineering should be out.
6. i passed swimming test in pri sch and have a swim cert
7. i learnt japanese in sec school, but stopped halfway
8. i know first aid and passed first aid course before - i look like first-aider? haha. must be the rv nurse uniform.
9. i used to hate chinese and always struggle to pass chinese in sec sch - yes yes. higher chinese sucks. phew >.<
10. i got kissed by a stranger before - if anyone dare to do that i'll skin him alive. hahaha.
11. people call me ali
12. i think lady's fingers (the vegetable) are nice
13. i had a crush on a girl half head taller than me in pri sch
14. i have grade 2 in flute - hehe. sorry i'm not musically inclined. playing a flute doesn't mean i have the standard. =X
15. my sister has two sons - surprised? =)

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i'm getting obsessed with mayday. still not a soler convert. but the songs are nice! anyway here's some nice mv. =)

五月天 - 超人

Soler - 風的終點

//.boredd

2006-09-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

okay. i'm bored. that's why i'm blogging. haha. tml's chem paper 1 and 2! last two core papers. if you don't count the s papers that is. pain in the ass. lol. so far the school's managed to slaughter us in many many subjects. not to mention for this prelim i'm seriously careless, and dunno why just can't think of the necessary stuff when it comes to the paper. for once i know i'm quite screwed. =X

haix. like what the heck. what's over is over. just praying hard that tml's chem not so bad and i can do much better for the As. duh.

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One. Think of 10 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they’ve gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them on blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1. i play the flute before
2. i'm a malay
3. i love chocolates
4. the only country that i've been through so far (apart from singapore) is australia and indonesia
5. i want to take chemical engineering in university
6. i passed swimming test in pri sch and have a swim cert
7. i learnt japanese in sec school, but stopped halfway
8. i know first aid and passed first aid course before
9. i used to hate chinese and always struggle to pass chinese in sec sch
10. i got kissed by a stranger before
11. people call me ali
12. i think lady's fingers (the vegetable) are nice
13. i had a crush on a girl half head taller than me in pri sch
14. i have grade 2 in flute
15. my sister has two sons

i'm not tagging anyone. just do if you bo liao like me. anyway just tag your answers.

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did a personality test sent by kevy. here's the result:

You are a person who is keeping things to yourself.
You are a bit more choosy on friends and only hangout with those whom you think are on the same frequency.
What you want in your life is half fullfilled.
You are weak in your life and tends to be fragile.
You have low sex drive.
You have a few good friends in your life.
Your last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to you.
Even when your partner is around you, you will flirt around with others.
You have an average ego.
A humble personality is in you.
You get average bond with your friends.
Your partner is pure and good in your heart.
Your partner is a very homely and humble person.
You seek your partner whenever you are met with problems.

Hmm...

//.update

2006-09-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

phew. 4 papers in a day. what a drag.. but anyway i'm glad it's over. huge chunk of subjects off the schedule.

this will be a very short update. hahahaha. cos i'm ripping the soler album wanglaoshi bought from macau! oh man the music rocks. =X

maths p2 tml. i rushed a bit of stats just now and already brain's fried. must be the effect of the 4 papers today and the maillard browning from monday.

today's the day. oh wells. just feeling numb.

//.graduation

2006-09-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

didn't want to update, but just can't resist it. actually waiting for some other stuff to clear. oki im incoherent + lazy to explain.

highfive grad was happening. i think like 2, 3 weeks nvr see so many highfivers and it's great to see them again. phew phew. and of course i think everyone forgot my real name liaoz. but wells haha i just respond to everything anyway. hur hur.. >.< speech was a bit screwed up, i think. but ah wells what a learning experience. and bryant yes u did oki with the emcee-ing =) haha. it's not really about the screw-ups and hiccups but more of how u handled them and save the situation that's impressive. woots.

ironically highfive grad is supposed to be a new beginning. but then prelims are here. As are starting to crawl faster. and yes i think it's a break for many of us instead. haiz. but wells hope for at least an outing after prelims and before As. and at least hopefully got things to do during the dec hols. hahahahaha.

so much done within 3 months. woots. i think it's time to hit the books. -_-"

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prelims started alr. math was oki though im unsure of a few qns and i know i made a few stupid mistakes. argh. but still got stats which, hopefully, can save me.

econs was so 'fun'. haha. the qns aren't really that straightforward, and i tot my essays lacked content. but as usual while i wanted to do 2 micro 1 macro, i ended up doing more macro topics, which i was unsure of. and i realised my essay for the micro topic was a bit out of point. but oh what the heck. hopefully i won't fail. hahaha. i think average of 15 mark per qns is already lyk damn damn damn zai. phew...

and i mugged 2 hrs non-stop on food chem just. and planning to do inorganic and organic in sch tml b4 the paper. what a big risk. and studying absorbic acid (vitamin C) was useless cos i dun feel that i'm really absorbing anything. weird terms like streptococcus, millard, rancidity, clostridium botulinum, and other what-nots that were supposed to be well-memorised and organised in my brain. my brain's fried and i hope it doesn't have any browning effect. i'm brown enough already.

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911's 5th anniversary today. i think it's so scary that within these 5 years so much has changed globally. oh wells, the turning point of the century? i guess humans are still a vulnerable species. vulnerable to itself. ironic.

but i'm sure this date would be remembered for many decades to come. hope history will nvr repeat itself. =)

//.volunteerism

2006-09-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

eons since i last updated. getting lazier. hur-hur. teachers day went to rv at the old sa campsite. been there before so no longer that impressed by the campus. its bigger than the west coast one, and definitely bigger than the commonwealth site. haha. and in a few years time they moving to an even bigger campsite at boon lay. phew. lucky juniors.

some group photos we took.

us and mr choy~ haha.. oki i think i miss his handy guide. i actually lost mine! argh...

mrs lee with us.. as usual her jokes were very corny. hahaha. but no longer so scary to us liaoz. and she getting lamer. need wheelchair. hahaha. oops!

and mr lim with us. haha. so dedicated sia. giving consultation sessions with the sec 4 on tchers day. =X

woots. miss the rv days suddenly. haha. im getting old. sadly.

anyway after that we went K-boxing. got the largest room for just 10 ppl. and the largest room is actually the size of 2 small rooms and even bigger. phew we went in shout still got echo one. oki just kidding. haha. but that room quite suitable for class outings. LOL.

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steve irwin passed away. but at least he died for a passion which he lived for. that gained my admiration. =)

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oki actually didn't really want to blog for the next month or so. but read something in the straits times today. about volunteerism.

more youth are getting involved in social service. haha. but of course there's still the usual stories where many of the teens do social service just to chalk up hours or for good record (and quite a large proportion of them really do that). haha. these stories are so common now that usually i won't feel for them, but ytd had some qns posed to me, asking me why do i do volunteer work and what do i gain from it. haha. some thoughts just ran through my mind.

for one thing, i know that it's no longer about the hours or what-not. but yet sometimes when you immerse yourself too much into something you forget the very reason why you commit yourself in the first place. and true enough, i realised i'm starting to do such work for the sake of it? like a teammate once told me, once you start, it's hard to lose the passion. and of course once you stop for a while, you lose the moltivation forever.

i guess im gaining momentum for one thing. but actually come to think of it, i haven't been doing that much like what others think it to be. just ad-hoc stuff and projects.

i'm getting incoherent. but of course there's always those few cases. nkf incident, and now possibly the youth challenge. oki its quite saddening at times but i think there're just so many others who volunteer their efforts for a much better reasons. perhaps that's why we should not let our impression of volunteers be altered by the actions of those minority cases.

nonetheless i realised i still need to search for my own moltivation and drive, so today i decided to browse through some photos i took for the past few years. and finally i found the moltivation behind all these. volunteering is not about hours or money. the cip hours you chalk up contribute almost nothing to admission in universities (sadly it's the a lvl cert that matters. oh c'mon be realistic). the rewards are something unrecorded, or one you can't own, but can feel, and remain etched in your memory.

simple innocence. its hard to forget those smiles. =) aww...

//.rally

2006-08-21T20:20:00.000+08:00

cheng cheng cheng. went for national day rally! oki i think i sound a bit over-excited. haha. didn't know the coast2coast ppl were going to be mentioned by PM Lee so i was like... oh-oki-shall-attempt-not-to-fall-asleep mood.

went to ucc. security check was like >.< but not as bad as i expected though. then receive my sitting card. realised it was allocated seats. and our seats were allocated so that the camera can zoom in on us when we are 'mentioned'. oh goody. -_-" haha. a lot of ppl (including my bro) were laughing at me for looking damn bored and sleepy on tv. oops! i was trying to look attentive. >.< hahaha. yanyun sms-ed me to tell me not to sleep. and i dare not even take out my hp during the rally lest the camera suddenly sweeps over to our side. -_-"

chiaying and songyuan became couple of the year. being the couple mentioned by PM that got married after knowing each other through YEP. hehe. reporters kept asking them qns and taking our photos. i think they figured we looked horrible ytd. was shocked when mum told me they used the photo of me and cera they took in aceh and published in zao bao. eeeek!

oh wells. ytd was a learning experience! for one thing i realised i'm over-corresponding on the net, that i've lost my ability to communicate well face-to-face! bahhhhh. was so quiet and shy (so unlike me!) when the PM Lee, RADM Teo Chee Hian and the other MPs came to talk to our group >.< lol! haha. and chia ying was like.. should treasure this moment cos doubt such opportunities will come in the future.

but i guess the thing about the rally is not the press coverage and what-nots. talked to a few grassroots people there. and realised that the circle is quite small once you're in it. like the people in my group seemed to know quite a lot of other people. haha. of course i felt like so... out... -_-" but saw cindy. haha. went to talk to her and omg, she got a namecard. >.< hahaha.

i dunno why. but the thing that was said ytd which struck me most was the digital age topic, talking about people who no longer correspond face-to-face. and here i roughly quote PM Lee: "if you are at 2 ends of the world, you call each other. if you are 2 tables apart, you also call each other".

woots. how true. sometimes im so glad when people actually bothered to call to inform me of activities, and i get a bit put off (being anal again) when i see a message that was clearly mass-sent out to inform of activities. haha. oki i guess its quite stupid, since such stuff are meant to be mass-sent. hmm even i fall into this trap as well. >.< but i wonder what has happened to those times when we spent effort and time calling all those people up and speak personally to them, be in on work business, or just to say "how are you?"

the few "how are you?"s i have asked recently, or in fact over the past few months, were on MSN.

tuts tuts. and i forgot how long ago was it that i called a friend whom i've not contacted for sooooo long, just to catch up with him or her. and of course seldom my phone rings for personal reasons already. driven by work. work. work. when's that personal touch???

//.nationaldayweek

2006-08-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

late by a week. photos photos photos...

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7 aug - went back to rv for ROD!

the outgoing ncos =)

rvnp family eating.. all the unfamiliar faces...

the 4 of us.. des, zhiwei, zhenbin and me!

ncos 2004 reunion =)

me zhijun linkah somewhere among our cadets...

and the current RV logo.. outside old SA campus..

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8 aug - celebrations in sch.. of which i left home at 8am when school started at 720am.. -_-" and K with the cs ppl!

william's attempt to look slim beside bong... >.<

those that went for the celebrations. note how few there are. haha

recently abit crazy about jump-in-midair shots. here's one quite successful one with wee..

and the unglam one of myself -.-

and the K part of the day =) how nice~!

lan ren singing! lucky it's just a photo.. hahaha

and jamie took this photo of me. weird angle. but shuai notx?

group photo. and guangliang behind us! haha. lyk this shot =)

another group photo! we rock!

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9 aug - SB outing!!!

the 5 of us halfway through cycling.. at one of the jettys.. it was like already half raining.. hahaha. and the wind is strong.. can tell ritex?

this is us at bedok jetty. LOL

emo shot. hahaha.

oh and this is one of the jump shots we've had. asked a fisher to help us take. took him like dunno how many tries to finally get this! hahaha. we look so spastic.

and this is my own jump shot. seriously unglam. realise i can't have a jump shot all by myself =X hahaha.

after cycling went to bowl, then head down to orchard to eat and pool. hahaha. but before eating we spotted the cows outside cine! so rushed to take photos like a bunch of mad men. oh yesssssss we are maddddddd!

me and hariz hugging the pole. meet the new-age pole dancers! =X

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oh and i got two new posters up on my room wall!!! now half of my room like totally covered with soooo many posters.. =X

long hu men! my bro and his wife went to watch and managed to get 2 posters! =)

mayday! i bought their dvd. haha. bought 1 on my bdae for shijun. then cos no money so had to wait till monday before buying one for myself. and guess what? the one i bought on monday came with this poster. so weird. end up shijun dun have. hahahaha! oops.

yay!

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got to write my testimonial now.. >.< prelims are coming! doubt im blogging for the next few months alr. with the busy schedule and the laziness to type... hahaha. think the best way to catch up with long-lost friends are not through words in an sms or msn window, but through the phone or handwritten letter. haha. oki im a bit touchy on sincerity. and just a few days ago someone scolded me and told me not to ask wad bday present she wants when im planning not to get any anw. not that i dun want to get, but forgot! oops =X but anw yeah felt so guilty. LOL. oki so i've learnt to rmb my promises and what-nots. LOL.

prelims prelims prelims. 2 more weeks of school left! FINALLY!! won't miss HC i guess, just school life and huangcheng. haha. oki that sounds... >.<

woots. =)

//.huiqing.birthday

2006-08-06T16:28:00.000+08:00

i'm one year older alreadY! =)

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ohh.. before that.. photos from huiqing!

the backdrop! haha. still got theme for this year's huiqing sia! =D

s66 huangcheng ppl, but missing weilong cos he was preparing for handover!

zong you yi tian deng dao ni!

me and da ben xiang...

yunling and i hitting da ben xiang. hahaha!

me peihan and lan ren!

yingchang and sm!

junyi and me~

rv huangcheng ppl! there're so many of us!

me nic liangcheng..

4a chi soc ppl! LOL.

and me and zhuzhang xinyu~ lol. with the little early bdae present she got for me!

the huangcheng 05/06 ppl with half dao/half act cute looks!

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and i got replies from fongyee and wenjing for the previous post thing. haha. pasting them here so i wont lose them. lol.

fongyee:
1. You're 8 days younger than me =X
2. Er, this is quite tough... Take ABRSM exam for any instrument? haha
3. Beige
4. You're a friend who I know will be there forever. And you're super friendly.
5. You were in another group or something if I remembered correctly, before you stood in front of me during Chingay? The clearest memory I have of you is that you were there one day wearing a jacket (white if not wrong) and you were sitting next to me in one of the PA rooms with the whole group, watching Uncle John talk. Haha.
6. A dog (i mean it in a good way of course)
7. I shall ask another day, but the question is already there. lol

wenjing:
1. Tomorrow's your birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY hoho. Is that very random?
2. I challenge you to... err... (?) go scuba diving! It's fun!
3. BROWN haha I don't know why!
4. You're ENTHUSIASTIC! (:
5. Your L7 phone haha cos it's similar to my L6.
6. Err, OKAY i really don't know...HAMSTER?! XD
7. Did you design your blog yourself?

(reply to wenjing's qns: nope! goped from blogskins.com.. but i modified a bit!)

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back to birthday!

friday morning had small celebrations with huangcheng ppl, class, and 4a ppl. haha. and anw finally concluded that lenny (my long lost twin...) is older than me by a few hours. hehe. yiyun made me a nice card. and thanks to wee, ian, huiying and yunling for the shirt. i wore it on sat! haha.

yanyun malu-ed herself with the follow SMS on 4 aug morning, 1 day before my bdae! im surprised she woke up so early anyway!

yanyun (SMS): Happy birthday hanny honey! U are not a sweet hanny at all may you be sweeter! Enjoy your day oh my its so early!

boonhan: erm.. i think you are one day too early! LOL!

yanyun: Oh no. Nvm.. In case i cant wake up in time Tmr. Are you going to tell the whole class now? Ssh!

of course i did. hahaha.

and the 4a ppl got me a shirt and a veh cute card. haha.

lol! im supposed to see my reflection. hahaha

and s66 ppl made a really nice card/booklet of some sort. lol. didnt realise i haf tt many unglam photos in the album. -_-"

sat morning went for the budgeting course at buona vista. haha. thanks to the highfive peeps which suddenly sang bdae song when i went back to the room after toilet visit. lol! haha. the course was pretty boring and pointless though. oops! haha. anyway eugene was like sms-ing me bdae wish when i was sitting beside him during the course. -_-" oh thanks fengyao also for the little gift. hahaha. =D

and after that went harbour front meet the class go sentosa. shijun and i (both bdae boys) were early. and the rest were all late, and made us wait almost an hour!

lol. but anyway went to palawan, swam a bit and rotted a bit. didn't get burned, though i suppose a bit more tanned alr. -_-" not that i need the extra colouring...

those that went to sentosa!

but anyway after that went town for dinner. went to this nydc-related restaurant, big O. (photos from here onwards may look distorted cos cant upload photos onto blogger liaoz, so using photobucket -_-")

here's the logo.

oh then had dinner. ate steak. and concluded that the food is pretty nice. hahaha.

my bdae cake! mind the holes cos of the candles. hahaha.

and the cut cake on a plate!

wee and me..

welfare rep and me.. haha

bong and me! thanks for being such a great fren!

ian and me. realised i look so retard in the prev 2 photos.

ct rep and asst ct rep. obviously ct rep not veh happi. haha. cos he's been carrying a gay bag ard the whole day. hahaha. metro!

fellow bdae boy and me! haha. happi bdae shijun in advance! (7 aug)

the class outside big O~

and then the class bought cake and sang bdae song and stuff. hahaha. mux really thank shijun and the rest for planning these out. haha. =) spent loads of money i think, cos the cake not cheap. thanks ppl! and thanks to junhong, shijun, william for the shirt~

and thanks to all those for ur bdae wishes and presents! not listing everyone here cos scared i miss someone out. thanks ppl! =D most memorable day of the year. haha. since bdae onli comes once a yr anw...

//.会庆

2006-07-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

What a weekend. 会庆 was yesterday! But lazy to post photos. Haha. Suddenly I wish can turn back time to the painful (but enjoyable) 3 months of HuangCheng this year. Woots.

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Comment (i.e. Tag) on this entry and:

1. I’ll respond with something random about you
2. I’ll challenge you to try something
3. I’ll pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I’ll tell you something I like about you
5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I’ll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your blog

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And school's tml again. How dreadful.

//.high5weekend~

2006-07-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

what a weekend!!! had SB project (the last time we're gonna ever do the skit) on saturday! kinda glad but very sad that it's ended. but we'll have SB outing for sure!!! haha!

photos photos~

i so so so love the background! haha. so kiddy =)

oh yes i'm trying to eat malina up. hehehe...

oh no! now the shark is eating me up!!!

oki here's the proper picture...

and we're taking each other!!!

me and fellow admin-er wenjing~!

the two HOT guys and kevy again! okie think i look retard~ -_-"

me and carey! =)

group photo!

and of course someone mistook me for a sec 1 boy this time round... harumphzzz... and thanks to all the kind souls for LAUGHING. grrrrrr...

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but anyway jeng jeng!! it's chia ying's and song yuan's wedding at night after SB stuff. held at zoo! so cool lah. oki too bad no photos. can only give very short descriptions. let's see... bride and groom came in on an elephant. the wedding rings came in on a pony! and then of course was the story behind the wedding rings, made from the french coin they both found during one of their YEP trips to cambodia. so romantic!! haha. next time if can must hold my wedding in those unusual way. like parachute or diving or what not!! hahaha. oh and i miss YEP so much! hahahaha. dun tink i can go this year end again, cos they're holding it in late dec. =X

but anyway i drank quite a lot of beer before the friends at my table (all at least 5 years older than me) realised i'm still a few months underage. harumphz...

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oh wells. went down for tapestry today! lazy to updat already. here are the few photos i took~

the shirt design!

and yes me and malina being lame again -_-"

group photo!

oh yes i saw nicolas gian! long lost pri sch fren... hahaha. and saw other ppl like bing kai and bong. and that cheeyang guy. hahaha.

hariz i shall just mention u here. lame~

what a weekend!

//.announcement

2006-07-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

[edited]

Thought I would do some advertising here (click to see enlarged picture):

Tapestry. Something felt to resemble a richly and complexly designed cloth.

Tapestry. A platform to display artistic talents; a stage to perform and highlight creative skills.

Tapestry. An arts event created by youth volunteers (High Five Youths) from the Central Singapore Community Development Council (CSCDC) for youth artists and performers. By allowing them to boast their talents through various forms of expression, Tapestry aims to nurture a culture of arts in youths, reaching out to the public, and raising awareness on the High Five Youth Program and beneficiaries, which they adopt.

From a humble beginning, Tapestry was formed in 2002 by a group of High Five Youths who were inspired to provide an avenue for youths in Singapore to voice and express their feelings and thoughts through visual and audio performance. Understanding the need for more sponsored public avenues for young people to have a chance at performing, 5 locations along the streets of Orchard Road were demarcated to provide for expression. After 2 days worth of street busking, participants were enthralled and appreciative of this initiative, with feedbacks requesting for more.

Turning 5 this year, Tapestry Two006 is back to provide assortment and diversity in performance. Actively sourcing for more variations, we promise an event greater in magnitude and better in quality. With workshops aimed at improving knowledge in arts and our community, Tapestry hopes to encourage the development of unique forms of artistic expressions for our community. Sending vibrant signals of harmony and togetherness, the arts will prove to be a vital energy powering the new generation of creativity.

21st July (Fri) - 7pm to 9pm
22nd July (Sat) - 1pm to 9pm
23rd July (Sun) - 1pm to 9pm

Venue: Wheelock Place, outside Takashimaya, Far East Plaza, and outside Heeren

All proceeds will go to Marian Centre =)

//.sb

2006-07-11T21:46:00.000+08:00

performance at amk! haha. i think it's not the outcome of the show, but the process of it. glad we managed to pull off something presentable =D

anyway thanks to kelvin and bert and farhana and mariam and the campteen ppl for coming down to support! hehe. pictures say a thousand words. so here they are! but not all cos no time to finish uploading. com has been giving me problem so no time to tag, blog, and upload photos =X

kevy with the 2 HOT PEOPLE!!!

me and malina!

oh yes we went to macs after the performance and saw these two creatures on the wall, apparently about to MATE. =P

the flash from the cam scared them off. LOL.

on the way home...

hariz scared them off!

LOL.

so we took the seats instead. and became so sian diaoz...

under quarantine...

and i'm sooooo HOT!

me and mariam!

stuck to the pole!

HIGHFIVE!!!

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oh and i realised some photos were lost cos my com sorta cocked up. argh. but i dun think there were many lost. hahaha. oops. doesn't make sense.

will blog again after another long while! wait till i fix my com bah. and sorry qiqi not tagging for the time being! =P

//.movie

2006-07-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

YES THE BLOCKS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!

physics paper 3 was sooooo fun. basically there were 5 qns and they told us to start each qns on a fresh sheet of paper, but only gave us 4 pieces initially. and i was there laughing that the message from physics department is so clear. "YOU ARE NOT MEANT TO COMPLETE THE PAPER IN TIME. SO FORGET IT." but anyway they realised their mistake and gave us one more piece after that lar. but i guess it's no point where the number of questions i never do plus skipped is more than 1 whole qns worth of score. woots.

after school was quite slack with no concrete plans in mind. then decided to go town with guangfeng and cher. and yes it's so horrible to travel with that LAN REN. went down to paragon, so that he can collect some FREE GIFT from a ulu office on the 17th floor. oh man. like going out with auntie like that. and he got some free bag, which really looked ugly, and contained free instant food or something like that made by the company. and yes he asked for a carrier from the person in-charge there, and could only manage to get a cold storage bag. lolx. so end up he decided to go find other bags from other shops downstairs. guess where he was thinking of? toys R us. lol. but anyway finally managed to persuade him to like, go to marks and spencer or something.

went into marks and spencer. he went to buy a miserable small packet of chocolates worth $3.90 and went to the counter to pay. i was looking around when i heard his loud auntie-like voice. "erm can you give me a bigger plastic bag please? for this? (points at his free gift)" and the scene was like. omg. i can't believe i'm wearing hc uniform and walking around with him. -_-"

anyway after went to eat at taka and walked down to ps. sent my phone for servicing. so sad. can only get it back on friday. meanwhile like using my mum's phone. oh boy i miss nokia phones. woots. then went cathay and bought tickets for a movie at picture house. lol. for me it was a bit like just to gain experience of watching a not-so-commercial-film in the picture house at cathay. haha.

but after buying tickets, with 2 hours to spare, that lam guang feng decided to drag us to ang mo kio so he can collect another free gift he won from participating in some contest in i-weekly. -_-" so took train to like yio chu kang. and took a bus which landed us in the most ulu place i've been, in the middle of some medium-sized industrial area. woots. turned out the place we're going to is Mediacorp publishing. goodness. at such a place?! and yes he got a movie poster and 2 movie tickets, and he still ask for carrier for the poster, which the person there don't have. ^_^ haha. then we walked back to the bus stop, along which there was argument as to whether to take cab back to ps, and who should pay since someone dragged us there or something. but anyway we ridiculously walked back to the mrt station. upon reaching lan ren had the courage to say "oh wo jin tian jian fei cheng gong" like when there's still a long way to go for him. hahaha.

went back to ps to meet jamie. and while leaving the gantry at the mrt station, gf decided to let us chu chou again by trying to repeatedly tapping the card and realised he can't get out. so he was like there tapping, hitting, etc. even took out a card. we were about to go back and help him when he suddenly like exclaimed. "oh yuan lai wo fang cuo di fang le". gahhh. so diu lian. haha.

so went to watch Riding Alone for 1000 Miles, a film by zhang yi mou. hmm. apparently gf and cher said this director loves to self-induldge and stuff. haha. and i was like expecting some scenes to be quite bad and boring. and was expecting to fall asleep. haha. but end up the movie was very touching and pretty well directed and handled. woots!

the movie is about this father who's relationship with his son is quite bad, and hasn't seen him for almost 10 years. then now his son is dying, but was refusing to see his dad when his dad went to the hospital. so this dad watched a video made by his son on chinese soap opera, and wishing to fulfil his son's wish to film down the opera "Riding Alone for 1000 Miles" sang by this particular singer in some ulu village, he decided to travel to China and look for the singer and film his performance. but obviously loads of unexpected stuff happened. like the singer was in jail and stuff like that. and yet the father refused to give up hope, even after his son was already very touched and wanted his father to return. end up the son died, but the father just continued to finish fulfilling this wish. but i guess the amazing thing was, we never got to see the son's face, only hear his voice for a very short instance. the love between this father and son was expressed very subtly through other events in the whole movie. think it's worth watching yeah, especially the dad's encounter with the kid yang yang! haha. that hug near the end was like the trigger and the most explicit expression of the father's love for his son.

and jamie switched on her tap. but i must admit the story is pretty touching and zhang yi mou handled this show quite well. hahaha. oh wells. but i guess it's not meant to be a commercial show. nothing special. just normal, plain looking characters. haha. oh wells.

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yay. blocks are over. but now not looking forward to school. hahaha. and recently my mum has been complaining that i'm too caught up with the 'wrong' stuff and should be devoting time to gakkai instead. this comment just like turned me off cos she just put everything not gakkai-related as secondary and unimportant, and not worth paying attention to. haha. just about made me more determined to stay in hiatus there. hahaha. oh what the heck. =)

//.nyfunfair

2006-07-01T20:33:00.000+08:00

went for nygh funfair today. nvr ever tot i wld make it to the ny gates since i literally crawled out of the bed after bryant's call. was soooooo tempted to go back to sleep. and to think bryant called me at 1030 to say meet at 12++, i tot i wld be soooooo late since i need to buy lunch. and BRYANT and GRACE u two heartless people end up changing meeting time 1pm without telling me! made me waittt for so long when i could haf slept a bit more! HMPH.

and THANKS HARIS and PEITING for ur NICE comments about my photos!! lol. made me decide to blog so i can move the previous entry further down. lolz.

anyway as i was saying went to ny funfair. saw quite a number of people. some from huangcheng, some just hwachong people, and a few highfivers and stuff. lol. spent 10 bucks there, and wanted to go to the haunted hse by wanrong and bert's class. but we were put on a waiting list which never seemed to clear. so went back there for one last time and was trying to call wanrong or bert and see if they can push us up the list a bit. hehe. but end up couldn't find them and i was like shouting into the classroom "HEY BERT COME OUT OF YOUR NEST". lolz.

and out of the 4 of us who were roaming around throughout the fair, we sort of found a rasul-alike among us. hehehe. we decided to use up all 30 bucks of our coupons since the fair was ending and it never look like we're going to make it for the haunted house. and the rasul-alike managed to bargain like madd. earlier she bargained for free coupons from friends, then free food. then while going around to stalls which were desperately cutting prices since the fair was ending, she managed to help us get more food than the coupons were worth. LOL. must see her bargaining power sia! seriously like auntie!! lol!! and haris can't eat a plate of pasta without dribbling all over his shirt or knocking into a purely innocent ny girl and touching the wrong parts. hehe.

lol anyway friday i went bugis walk walk and got myself new bag and slippers. lol. just felt like spending money these days. i shan't elaborate on the SB rehearsal cos it's not worth blogging about and it's NOT FUNNY. lol. end up getting suan-ed like mad throughout. lol. laughters. laughters. and more laughters.

i need to start on fluids! gahhh.

[edit] lol just now after eating dinner i was washing up when door bell rang. knew for sure must be some salesman thingy. wanted to ignore but he was just tt buggerish. so i pop my head out of the corner and asked "yes?"

that salesman upon seeing me asked, "muslim?"

apparently he's trying to sell things to muslim. and apparently he can't tell between a chinese and malay well. GAH.

and yes i'm gonna start killing people soon! GAH. [/edit]

//.photos

2006-06-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

no choice but to blog cos i must show the princess how CUTE i am! =P

yes PRINCESS im cuter than u!

and yes speaking of block tests. YANYUN FELL DOWN ON MONDAY in the most unglam manner i've ever seen. LOL. copied the post from her blog. hehehehehe. the "I" refers to her btw. LOL.

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(copied and pasted from her blog)

i fell down today!!in the canteen when walking with guat pei and boonhan.
WAD A DISGRACE!!!!
i was walking walking and i tripped over one idiot step den i flew to the ground.
i landed on my hip. due to the fling, i was almost going to LIEEEEE on the ground, hands apart, legs apart, facing the stairs leading to the canteen.
so i quickly ROLLLLED OVER and sit up straight and closed my legs.
and amidst my rolling, gp and boonhan turned around and saw.
DEN THEY BURST OUT LAUGHING!!!!(instead of coming over and help me!)
after my rolling and somersaults, the end result was a pose similar to sit and reach.
AND I SAT THERE LAUGHING!!! Facing to a group of people approaching that flight of stairs.
AND GP N BOON STOOD THERE LAUGHING NON-STOP!

on the way home my hip was giving out pangs of pain and boon han was STILL LAUGHING.
then a bus came with an advertisment that says,
"BRITTLE HIPS!?!? DRINK ANLENE!!!!!!!"
omg.

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but anw like i was saying block tests are sooooo fun cos it makes people feel stupid. yay. im gonna get rid of two papers at one go tml. after tml it's one subject left! but i still end sooooo late. =X

//.endzzz

2006-06-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

ends of hols. bah. blocks tml. woots. i guess that's the end already. lol.

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王力宏 - Kiss Goodbye

Baby 不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走去跟随

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次 kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次 kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

oh...
我终于明白
oh...

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次 kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

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i'm obsessed with this song~! =D

oh man... 4 consecutive days of blocks... >.<

i shall be happy! =D

//.whatif

2006-06-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

haha. i suddenly hate adam smith and keynes like mad. finished trying to mug down my econs a while ago. shall read through some MCQ later after i wake up (it's 130am now) and that concludes the holidays.

a sudden thought (a qns from a forwarded email i received from another friend). what if i'm to die now?

i would die knowing that i've touched another person's heart.
i would die hoping that i've no regrets.
i would probably die realising that i do have quite a number of them.
i would remembering all those wonderful times i've spent with people i love.
i would die worrying what will happen to my family.
i would die hoping my friends can erase me from their memories.
i wld die with ur face etched in my memory, regretting that i nvr did told u i love u.
haha. so random. oh wells. sometimes i really hope that i will be forgotten. so selfish me. hahaha. this holidays had been short, and pretty empty. if not for highfive stuff i would probably have gone nuts thinking of other stuff. bahhh.

good luck to me for the blocks.

//.mrt

2006-06-23T13:54:00.000+08:00

went for sb rehearsal ytd morning. wahhh. kinda dragged myself out of bed siax. end up so many ppl late. hehe. so we played pool! woots. loads of things happened at jssc. ER-HEMZ. we did props and tried fixing the roles and stuff. oki. actually i think the whole morning was spent slacking!!

took train down to pasir ris for the mrt thingy. so cool!!! it's like one whole train to ourselves! and we're on tv last night!! hahaha!! then went down to changi airport with the elderly and ex-convicts. brought the ren ci ppl back to their hospice. woots. first time i went into renci's wards and stuff. can't describe the feeling that i had when i was there. haiz. kinda pity the old folks there. conditions there aren't really that good after all.

oh wells, then cabbed back to airport and met the rest. had dinner and stuff. lol. for free. actually no larx. we paid stickers. woots. oh we played this stupid game lar. shan't describe much. next time can play on others also.

"i can't feel it", "the hole's too small", "i'm trying, but it's too small", "i can't find it", "no hole"

LOL! bryant's classic "NO HOLE". wahahahahahaha.

anyway that concludes the day. and i'm trying to start mugging down econs. TRYING.

AND YES KEVY I KNOW I GOT A SEXY BUTT. >.<

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what i'm thinking is no longer important. i mean, it's so amazing how that time i kept persuading you to stop hating that person, and cos of that we ended up like this. now you are already not hating that person, when we've already ended up like this. i don't know what you're thinking, and i don't wanna know. cos i don't know you two anymore. come to me when you've made up your mind.

//.song

2006-06-20T11:26:00.000+08:00

lolx. taking a break from trying to mug. i think i'm so screwed. oh wells, heck liaox. been trying to find songs on iwebmusic. but it's so lousy with so few songs. so forget it. anyway went to update the songs in my phone yesterday. hahaha. as for mugging side, got to finish up the sciences by today so that i can start on econs. woots.

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曹格 - 世界唯一的你

是你
第一眼我就认出来
这是命运最美的安排

是我
让你过长的等待
我们只要现在深爱
幸福就来

恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

这个世界唯一的你
是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密

紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意

过去所有的悲哀
都只是寻觅我唯一
勇敢真爱

照亮了漆黑的夜晚
寻找了一次一辈子
再不分开

恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

ooh... yeah...
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密

紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意

oh...
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

oh...
就算让我伤尽天理
我什么都愿意为你

紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意

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Soler - 风的终点

我在草原上望着云朵
那一片像你的轮廓
因为风你一直变化
我也只能这样望着

你的心里爱我吗
就像那片云般模糊
其实我也不在乎
只要你别的飘太远
云的你我无法了解

何处你想停歇
何时你会告别
而我很好理解
有天你觉得累了
我在那里等着你

你的心里爱我吗
云笑着没有回答
其实我也不在乎
只要你别飘得太远
只要你别飘得太远
只要你别飘得太远

何处你想停歇
何时你会告别
我都不会埋怨
我会在风的终点
静静的等着你

那朵草原上
飘过的白云
是那末的美丽
我就这样记录
你的每一幕
已经很幸福

何处你想停歇
何时你会告别
我都不会埋怨
我会在风的终点
静静的等着你

何处你想停歇
何时你会告别
我都不会埋怨
我会在风的终点
静静的等着你

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not bad =)

//.tsk

2006-06-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

woots. just reached home. haha. sd concert was very boring. think it's worse than last year's concert siax. and the performers are mainly not gakkai de. so sianz. lolz. interestingly i heard some ppl in front and behind me got a bit put off by the fact that we're doing gongyo before the start of concert. must be new friends. now i can understand how new friends feel hur hur. trying too hard already, people.

argh. now have to catch up on lost time for study.

woots. another term for 'stingy' is 'cost-conscious'. HEH.

trying to upload songs onto my blog. -_-" i've managed to put 3 or 4 liaoz. woots.

[edit] what do you want? you've been the one holding the cards all this while. make up your mind [/edit]

//.wedding

2006-06-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

woots. had my brother's wedding customary today. hahaha. collected quite a few ang baos from him. =P

anyway, goped the following from cheezy's blog. =)

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A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.

It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

Over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday."

Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days.

"Jack, did you hear me?"

"Oh sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It' s been so longsince I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said.

"Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as he put it," Mom told him.

"I loved that old house he lived in," Jack said.

"You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life," she said.

"He's the one who taught me carpentry," he said. "I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral," Jack said.

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time. Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time. The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture....Jack stopped suddenly.

"What's wrong, Jack?" his Mom asked.

"The box is gone," he said.

"What box?" Mom asked.

"There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell me was the thing I value most," Jack said. It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it.

"Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him," Jack said. "I better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom."

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from work one day Jack disc overed a note in his mailbox. "Signature required on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days," the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The mall box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. "Mr. Harold Belser" it read.

Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There inside was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read the note inside. "Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life."

A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes,! Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch. Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover. Inside he found these words engraved: "Jack, Thanks for your time! - Harold Belser."

"The thing he valued most...was...my time."

Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days. "Why?" Janet, his assistant asked.

"I need some time to spend with my son," he said. "Oh, by the way, Janet...thanks for your time!"
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,"

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much that they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

5. You mean the world to someone.

6. If not for you, someone may not be living.

7. You are special and unique.

8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust God to do what's best, and wait on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look; you most likely turned your back on the world.

11. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.

12. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

13. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy.

14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

To everyone reading this: "Thank you for your time."

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nice. =)

anw 3 subjects left over 6 days. woots. -_-" what happened to the holidays?!

//.music

2006-06-16T16:47:00.000+08:00

a bit bo liao today. oh the SI outing ytd was fun! except the fact that we got lost. -_-" haha. but anyway here's a hokkien song. hehehe. quite an old song by mayday liaoz. woots. still can't find the song on webmusic. oh iwebtunes died cos it was spreading spyware. woots.

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五月天 - 憨人

我的心内感觉人生的沉重
不敢来振动
我不是好子嘛不是歹人
我只是爱眠梦

我不愿随浪随风飘浪西东
亲像船无港
我不愿做人奸巧钻缝
甘愿来作憨人

我不是头脑空空
我不是一只米虫
人啊人一世人
要安怎欢喜过春夏秋冬

我有我的路有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内总有一天

看到满天全金条要煞无半项
环境来戏弄
背景无够强天才无够弄
逐项是拢输人

只好看破这虚华不怕路歹行
不怕大雨淋
心上一字敢面对我的梦
甘愿来作憨人

我不是头脑空空
我不是一只米虫
人啊人一世人
要安怎欢喜过春夏秋冬

我有我的路有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内

我有我的路有我的梦
梦中的那个世界
甘讲伊是一场空
我走过的路只有希望
希望你我讲过的话
放在心肝内

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A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert.

During some point of the journey they had an argument and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?" The other friend replied "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."

Learn to write your hurts in the sand and to carve your benefits in stone. =)

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anyway. here are some quotes i got from somewhere..

about money...

With money you can buy a house but not home
With money you can buy a clock but not time
With money you can buy a bed but not sleep
With money you can buy a book but not knowledge
With money you can buy the best medication but not good health
With money you can buy a position but not respect
With money you can buy a position but not respect
With money you can buy blood but not life
With money you can buy sex but not love

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but anyway... i'm broke >.<

//.ops

2006-06-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

had my op on monday! woohoo.. i think im nuts, sounding so hyper about it.. -_-"

anyway it was pretty fast procedure lah.. just went in, stare at the oxygen mask, took 3 deep breaths.. muahahaha.. then i'm awake 1 hour later.. but anyway the doctor complained that i had very fine veins, ended up having the needle missing me time and again.. tuts tuts..

woots.. the tooth was basically 1.2cm long.. and it grew inside the roof of my mouth.. can't believe it happens to about 10% of the people here?! haha.. but i guess people don't really realise or check.. anyway it's pretty harmless if it doesn't grow too much.. hehehe..

stuck at home, waiting for the wound to heal.. damn.. can't go for bbq this friday.. hehe.. if i go and try eating maybe the food will poke my wound by accident, and blood will start splurting out and what nots.. woots.. so unglam.. hahaha

been trying to hit the books.. starting my second subject today! and i'm left with less than 2 weeks! yay!

but still got loads to do, and many things to go for =)

//.internship

2006-06-10T22:52:00.000+08:00

informed of our internship today. admin admin. wahahaha. how come i'm not surprised at my choice? =P

today was ultra slack. say what.. go home to mug.. and i ended up napping.. woots~

wfxwyydxhnl.zmb?

woots. but at least admin in june quite free? must really really really start revising. like really.

hahahahahahaha.

nfdxzcxksm?yxssjl.fs.nq.ybybl.

what a random entry.

speaking of random. dawn made a grand entrance today. a few hours late into the meeting (though she had a good reason). but came in at the wrong time. hahaha.

oh man. i can't believe our graduation thingy is so grand. hahaha. like prom like that. woots.

oh.. and the number of baygon-ers who turned up.. was.. -_-" but we still took a photo anyway.. =P

tuts tuts.

//.woots

2006-06-10T01:28:00.000+08:00

the opposite of love is indifference, not hate.

do i hate? or is it indifference?

why are things turning this way?

maybe it's cause i'm not doing anything, and just letting things be.

that's why.

go ahead. go on.

feeling so childish.

deletes from everywhere.

whatever...

but then again, i'm blogging about this simply because of a friend that i don't want to lose?

why must people draw such a clear line hur hur?

grow up

//.slippery

2006-06-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

(edited entry)

woots. just a short entry. a short update.

had the cip day camp on monday and tuesday! woots. kids at a certain age can become monsters. haha.

but they're cool. they're fun. =) and we had fun too! among mentors, playing water bombs and

smashing, splashing around. hehehe. more like a camp for ourselves. oops!

went for follow up xray at cmpb yesterday. did long spine xray. hmm... hope it's nothing much. but

don't really think it's a good sign anyway. ah wells. just see if anymore letters come my way.

after that went done to jssc to 'study' and also rehearse the skit. all thought of studying was lost

the moment i saw the pool table. oops! hahaha. so much for mugging. oh and today was totally

unproductive. just slept, read manga, and eat. anyway i had more than enough sleep, so i guess i can

do a bit of revision late into the night later.

looking forward to saturday!!! i miss you people!!! =D

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gak.. reason why i edited this entry one day later cos the most unexpected person read it. oops!

but anyway end up i didn't mug late into the night after i blogged yesterday.

woots.

looking forward to tomorrow!

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haha. stop the anonymous stuff. so irritating.

//.CLAP

2006-06-03T16:31:00.000+08:00

went for clap yesterday. didn't know what it was about until i reach there. turned out to be singapore hip hop competition finals! woohoo. the highfivers just went nuts, crazy, and high. haha. and taking photos like everywhere we go. hohoho...

who's these two??? =P so scandalous...

and here's the winning team... representing singapore at LA. so cool... haha

highfive!

photos for vivant and clap are up! =)

camp vivant --- photos

clap! --- photos

can also access the links on the right. =)

//.vivant

2006-06-02T00:41:00.000+08:00

camp vivant!

nothing but pictures best describes the experience. although i must say most of the pictures are the unglam types. oops! hehe.

introducing the baygon...

our 3 beloved mentors...

and the ugly side of them. hehehe.

some in-between shots...

and the last day with prize presentation and all...

family protrait...

the wackier one...

all in all the camp was cool. one hostel room per person, with late night movie xmen 3 at cathay for free. cool games, especially the apprentice (er-hemzzz...) and blading!! haha...

going out again tml. yay! dun need study liaoz. hahaha.

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hmm.. some people just want to choose this path.. so yeah.. this is the way it's going to be.. no salvage..

//.cmpb

2006-05-25T23:29:00.001+08:00

had medical checkup today. pes a. haha. anyway it was pretty fast for me, took only 3 hours. didn't really have to wait much. but by the end of the psycho-cum-iq test sort of, my mind was like already knocked out. haha.

then took cab home and went out again to meet the juniors. realised it was kind of weird going out with them. hahaha. dunmanians.

but anyway the joke of the day was xinyu! we went to crystal jade to have dinner. and the girls spent a hell of a time selecting the dishes. by the time we finished selecting the dishes i was already half starved to death. but anyway the waitress took our orders.

us: (just finished ordering the last dish)
waitress: hao. na ni men yao he xie shen me?
xinyu: orh. wo men yao bai fan.
(silence...)
us: wahahahahahaha.

somehow while in the process of laughing i managed to ramble to the waitress that we wanted tea. and by the time we stopped laughing my stomach was so cramped i forgot i was hungry.

but anyway our 'bai fan' did came and we decided to take a photo of it.

and we continued laughing like mad.

then the 'tea' followed. and now we got the complete meal.

tuts tuts.

but anyway i missed lost cos of the show. though managed to catch the last 15 minute of the show. realised i was lucky to have missed it. stupid episode.

haha. but anyway happy bdae in advance to yihui. =)

//.shaysday

2006-05-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

hmm. here's another story posted by one of my aceh teammates, very long time ago. realised i didn't post it that time. so here it goes.

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Subject: Something to think about. What would you do? You make the choice! Don't look for a punch line. There isn't one! Read it anyway.

The question is: Would you have made the same choice? At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?" The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued, "I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child."

Then he told the following story: Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps. Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and a few boys nodded approval, why not?

So he took matters into his own hands and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning." Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?

Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball. However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay as the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled. Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home. All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the way Shay!" Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third!" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home!" Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team."

That day," said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world." Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy and coming home and seeing his mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY:
We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people think twice about sharing. The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces. If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people on your address list that aren't the "appropriate" ones to receive this type of message. Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the "natural order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up that opportunity to brighten the day of those with us the least able, and leave the world a little bit colder in the process? A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats its least fortunate amongst them. May your day be a Shay Day sunny today & always!

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Question: Would you have done what the boys did?

//.touch

2006-05-21T21:57:00.000+08:00

weekend was much wasted. decided not to touch any of my homework except the only assignment that i have to hand in.

too lazy already.

bball match on friday! it was quite a close match lar. but glad that hwachong clinched its third gold within three consecutive days. haha. anyway after that went to watch da vinci code. hmm. not really very disappointed, nor impressed. so ya. just like so-so. was a bit rushed in the front, but later on the momentum slowed down and tension was allowed to be built up. didn't really like the unpacking of stuff at the front. but anyway it was pretty nice lar. haha. quite worth watching, though maybe not worth spenind $9.50 on. watch on a weekday if you can.

touch night yesterday. hmm. oh wells. just something to spend the time away lar. so also not much comments. but at least its better than last year's dance night. haha

anyway here's a little something someone sent to me a while ago...

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Thinking Outside The Box. . .

You are driving down the road in your car on a wild, stormy night, when you pass by a bus stop and you see three people waiting for the bus:
1. An old lady who looks as if she is about to die.
2. An old friend who once saved your life.
3. The perfect partner you have been dreaming about.

Which one would you choose to offer a ride to, knowing that there could only be one passenger in your car?

Think before you continue reading.

This is a moral/ethical dilemma that was once actually used as part of a job application. You could pick up the old lady, because she is going to die, and thus, you should save her first. Or you could take the old friend because he once saved your life and this would be the perfect chance to pay him back. However, you may never be able to find your perfect mate again. The candidate who was hired (out of 200 applicants) had no trouble coming up with his answer. He simply answered: "I would give the car keys to my old friend and let him take the lady to the hospital. I would stay behind, and wait for the bus with the partner of my dreams."

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1. First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.

During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. "Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello." I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

2. Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab. She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.

Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached.. It read: "Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away... God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."

Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3. Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve.

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him. "How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked. "Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it. "Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient. "Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied. The little boy again counted his coins. "I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away.

The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, was one quarter, two dimes and five pennies.

You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4. Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way. Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.

5. Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister. I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her."

As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away?" Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.

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"Work like you don't need the money, sing like no one is listening, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like you do when nobody's watching."

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that takes our breath away"

"The risk takers might not live long, but the cautious never live at all"

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weekend's over. yay! it's the last week of school!

//.tagged

2006-05-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmm. was about to ignore being tagged by minyu, then yunling tagged me. -_-"

well here goes...

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INSTRUCTIONS.
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it.

Gender: female. duh

1. ---
2. ---
3. ---
4. ---
5. ---
6. ---
7. ---
8. ---

Conclusion: when it comes to someone you love, you know you love her. very weird to try forcing out 8 qualities of her right? haha.

Tagged victims:
1. timothy
2. jaymie
3. gladys
4. chuanting
5. bong
6. amanda
7. yunling
8. bryant

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Random Network CheckInstructions:
Name 20 ppl u can think of at the top of your head. Dun read the below questions before you write and tag 5 ppl to do this survey.

1. bong
2. shijun
3. amanda
4. ian
5. yunling
6. timothy
7. jaymie
8. kenneth
9. gladys
10. desmond
11. bryant
12. minyu
13. yihui
14. zhengyou
15. cherylene
16. justin
17. amelia
18. jiching
19. jamie
20. nicholas

How did you meet 14? (zhengyou)
huangcheng 06. first time in audtions. da ben xiang. =X

What would you do if you never met 1? (bong)
hehe. no need go CO concert in june liaox. =P haha. no lar just kidding. impossible not to meet him right? classmates leh.

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? (nicholas and gladys)
wah. unimaginable combination. hmm. maybe weird sparks will fly. heh!

Did you ever like 19? (jamie)
gosh. cannot lar. number 20 will kill me.

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? (timothy and amelia)
uh-oh. number 16 will kill 6. but anyway that combi is even weirder than nicholas and gladys. hahaha! cant imagine lar. will be a nice show to watch.

Describe 3. (amanda)
hehe. someone's favourite lor.

Do you think 8 is attractive? (kenneth)
how i know? i not gay lar. but anyway he's a nice friend. know him since... p5?

Tell me something about 7. (jaymie)
nothing good to talk about. HEH! oki lar. she thinks she's a hot babe. is that good?

Do you know any of 12's family? (minyu)
eh. nope.. oops!

What's 8's favourite? (kenneth)
not sure. knoe he likes blading, and likes the colour blue. haha.

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? (bryant)
you kidding? know he's despo, but not THAT despo.

What language does 15 speak? (cherylene)
english, chinese, and some dialect. like old grandmother like that. to her son, she speaks tamil. to her grandson, she speaks malay.

Who is 9 going out with? (gladys)
oops. i don't know lehx. been quite some time since i last met her.

How old is 16 now? (justin)
17+. but doesn't behave like his age.

When was the last time you talked to 13? (yihui)
quite some time ago le. don't remember. maybe 2, 3 days ago?

Who's 2 favourite band/singer? (shijun)
some english band. haha. don't know. but i think recently he's listening to mayday's songs. HEH.

Would you date 4? (ian)
NO. im NOT gay. besides, he's already got someone else. =P

Would you date 7? (jaymie)
faints.

Is 15 single? (cherylene)
hehe. depends on how you see it. the gender of guangfeng still remains undefined.

What's 10's last name? (desmond)
tan

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? (bryant)
seriously. im NOT gay.

What school does 3 go to? (amanda)
hwachong. classmates somemore

Where does 6 live? (timothy)
somewhere in jurong west.

Whats your favourite thing about 5? (yunling)
eh. nice person to talk to. hahaha. always stone with me in the morning cos always reach very early.

Have you seen no.1 naked? (bong)
no. and have no wish to. haha.

Tagged victims:
1. bong
2. timothy
3. jamie
4. pinyun
5. kenneth

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that aside. some classic jokes by adrian over the past few days. finally he's making sense. and finally he's jokes are having links!

was talking to zhiyun about some stuff on tues after school.
zhiyun: eh eh eh eh eh... (forgot what she wanted to say)
adrian: (he was just sitting beside us) i know my name starts with a, you don't have to call me that.

holy.

then today i decided to refresh my memory of da vinci's code in andrew tan's class. was reading the book under the table.
adrian just woke up from a half-hour sleep.
adrian: why is the book so brown?
boonhan: cos it's dirty...? (which it really was)
adrian: cos it's damn brown.

took me 5 seconds to register that.

holy.

but anyway chem lecture was eventful. ms neo lost her image to the s6 people in a matter of seconds. hahahahaha.

//.xiaopin

2006-05-14T11:33:00.000+08:00

小品! regretted that i missed their first version, cos their put up a totally changed script for the finals.

我们没得奖，并不代表我们输了。

没有任何一个初院能胜过我们的精神。=P

read ame's blog. exactly 2 months after our last 演出 already! 时间过得好快。再过不久，就会变成J3s，回来看黄城'07的筹备工作。

没想到我这个马来人既然会变成中文学会的一分子。陈老师听了一定一个星期睡不着觉。

but anyway. 加油 people!

我要唱一首华初的歌。

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*change topic*

the june hols are coming already. about 6 weeks to BT2s, then 2 more months from there to prelims, then about 1 more month to the As. and suddenly i'm student no more.

oops. don't want to think about it. just want to try to enjoy life as much as possible.

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haiz. irresponsible? you can't force your thinking on me right? i think what i want. try convincing me then.

blogs are dangerous. eeew.

been trying to orientate my thinking the right way.

but i think it's ironic that people criticise others behind their backs while claiming openly that they want to help them. hmm...

happiness? what's that?

and of course people gets missing in action when no information goes to them. hah. or sometimes it's when the sources are so wrong.

phew. enough of this.

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*change topic again*

and of course now i have to go finish my tutorials so i can photocopy them tomorrow. yup. that's that.

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almost a year.

//.pictureentry

2006-05-12T00:19:00.002+08:00

finally come to blog an entry. some photos to post, since nothing much really happened these few days anyway.

oh thanks to yunling i finally received the mrt challenge photos. some spastic photos of us as we ran crazy on trains and stations. haha.

that's us taking this shot in a few seconds, running out of the train and back in before the door closed. note the bewildered look on that woman, as we appeared suddenly behind her and disappeared in the next instant. guess which station?

next up, with the horrible lighting. haha. but this station is easy to guess.

and this is our group, photographer included. haha. sadly she wasn't featured in any of our wacky photos. why? she's taking the photos of course. i said she's the photographer right?

oki there's all for the mrt thingy. it was fun lar. haha

meanwhile of course there were crazy things that i did in school. i attempted to change my look by wearing other people's spectacles!!!

meet the white versus black!

and the black meets black. =)

and of course i realised im not really a spectacle person. but then again im really chaning to specs after june, along with braces (i think?) phew. extreme makeover. not that i really wanted it of course.

and happenings at the class bench! the chs people has fallen for the new craze: chess. and of course we followed suit by trying to play chess on somebody.

guess who? bong. hammer knock u. bong!

i think i no leg liao.

and my nephew is sooooo cute! when's he not crying of course!

sleeping soundly. so cute!

oh no! he's awake! and he looks like he's about to cry!

but ended up giving this kind of face at me. what the hell.

but anyway these 3 photos were taken on 3 different days. no link.

watched lv yuan on sunday! no comments. except i become the paparazzi and decided to go chase news. guess who i caught on camera?

try guessing. hehehe.

no offence taken i hope. i think its the case of the manager and a celebrity. haha. nothing much nothing much. but of course we all know who the celebrity is. =P

and ending off with photos from chuanting. hehe. she's saw these in some shop. and of course i apologise on her behalf for the poor quality of the brown one. its nothing to do with me, i swear. though i know im brown. a bit.

that's all for now. till i get more photos to blog about. haha. and i had a dream last night. quite dumb cos it was me back in aceh on a bus. no link.

now listening to 孙燕姿's Someone. even more no link.

//.hiatus

2006-04-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

hoho. think my life is getting very boring recently. yup. so going off-blog for a while. hehe. till something interesting comes my way.

before i go off, realised this song is quite nice. hahaha. another of 光良's song.

说好的三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验
我们的约定

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的
我更爱你了

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的

你会记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的
我更爱你了

and stupid bernie lu (which i haven't talk to on MSN for years) played a trick on me just a while ago. had me shocked diaoz and stunned for that while. hmphz.

//.woots

2006-04-29T16:04:00.000+08:00

haven't blog for 4 days. haha. nothing much has happened though... hee...

mrt challenge was fun. hehehe. though we lost, but had fun running around madly in mrt stations, taking shots within seconds after running out of the train and then back in to the same train after the shot is taken. blah blah blah. think people really thought we are nuts.

but wells. school's still the same. lectures. tutorials. boring. yawnnnz.

and wah. the news came earlier than we thought. got caught by surprise... sort of... hehe. but glad im going camp vivant. hmm. sounds fun~

sad to say though, decided to give the aceh trip a miss. its during school days (though i don't think it mattered), 1 week long, and will return just in time for camp. but i guess my parents will kill me. hah. better not.

2 more months to block tests 2. shucks. then after that left with 2 months to prelims, then 1 more month to the As. wah. can't believe hc life is ending so quickly. but well, i want it over fast. can't stand school life anymore. eeeeew.

maybe cos there's nothing to look forward to in school anyway. just another day of stoning.

long weekend! sleep! chocolates! =D

//.shortandsweet

2006-04-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

i just realise i'm so looking forward to this sunday. somehow! woots!!

chem s test was horrible. holy gave us the test paper, and somehow or so she ended up standing beside me (i was seated at the corner of the second last row). then i just stoned at the seemingly-can't-be-done questions and happened to stone at her. and she just said, "start lar!" in that kind of tone like i didn't know the test has started. everyone laughed, cos we all know it's funny she asked us to start when we don't even know where to.

cheated through half the paper. it was more like group work. haha.

chem skill a tomorrow! yay. at least one spa finally completed.

it's going to be a long week, but at least there's a wonderful (i hope) weekend to look forward to. and the june holidays are coming!!!

in a month.

some parts of huangcheng having some difficulties. read pinyun's blog. yar. gone are those days where 200 odd people line up for auditions alone. we don't even have a total strength of 200 this year. and for once more than one backstage group has to source for zuzhangs, instead of them coming forward and saying they want to run for the post. ya. gone are the days.

but what can we do?

*prays*

and of course there's this incident in school today. shan't make it really public, but i guess it definitely stirred up some feelings. such a scary incident. finally it's hitting hwachong. hmm. stress? maybe... but at least everything's fine now.

suddenly remember a similar incident so many years ago. that was a different story. suddenly i'm wondering how we all felt back then?

are regrets easily forgotten?

i'm a bit lost.

but i know when i'm lost, i should stop searching. cos somehow the answer will find me. =)

eat chocolates! =)

//.njcdanceconcert

2006-04-22T12:58:00.000+08:00

woots. njc dance concert was nice siax. suddenly hwachong dance group like more cmi than ever. but anyway i guess its cos too mane rv people flocked nj chinese dance group liaoz. even the chinese dance item was very similar to the rv syf piece. lol. even the costumes. but its really very nice, even the hip hop and the malay and indian dances. hahaha.

why can't hc be more culture-oriented? hmm...

anyway weekend will be shut up at home sia. too much stuff to work on and tests to study. chem spa on tues. haiz. but at least can finally finish one science spa already.

hmm... think im not observant enough. sometimes i guess my greatest problem is im too heck about the things happening around me. but seriously i cant be bothered either. lol. =P

i love chocolates.

//.sleep

2006-04-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

slept for very long today. napped i mean. think im still catching up on lost sleep for 1st 3 months. haha. speaking of lost, the show is getting nicer and more touching. haha. oki tink im quite no life keep eating, sleeping, and watching tv.

wls is so evil. haha. now really have to do SM report liao. anyway still looking for potential successors. haha. already got quite a few liao. but i guess the sad thing is zuzhangs are running short. haiz. some groups like no one running or not enough. ooh. and they actually selected the xingzheng people already??? haha. or maybe some of them liaoz. but wells. this means next year likely to be more efficient ba.

wah realised im really slacking the whole of today. currently keeping up with almost everything, just need to slog my guts out this weekend. haha. oh tml meeting the 4a people again. haha. NJ dance concert. cost me a good old 15 dollars. -_-"

this entry is boring... haha. but anyway yanyun came school today. to promote capriccio. haha. and we had this totally lame and short convo with the aep people. they were discussing about doing some cip and i decided to chap in....

me: "lol. i got more than enough hours liaoz... hahaha"
germaine: "aiya... cos of his aceh trip mah..."
yanyun: "chey..."
me: "ahh... chey..."
everyone: "chey..."

thats like so. -_-"

oh and my sister and her family (except for the youngest child who was left with us)... came back from shanghai! haha. aidan got heavier and crappier over the week. -_-"

anyway was talking to a friend a few days back... haha. think there're still some people who do cip really for the hours, or to actually make it look nice on the report card and stuff you know. that's like so... haix. the purpose of cip has been somewhat lost cos of these people? but i guess somewhere else in this world are people who really do things because they feel for it ba. but i guess the greatest thing in this world is to find someone who shares the same wavelength as you. haha. but seriously how many times have the average singaporean actually took some time to gaze at the stars or sit down to enjoy the sun or take in the fresh (if we have) air? hectic. busy. money. fame. glory. and we don't even realise what's happening at some corner of the society, where things are not the way we see it. tut tuts.

quoting from our gp tutor who quoted from somewhere else...

"a singaporean's heart is lonely."

is it true?

[edit] the point is. im not doing anything? so whats wrong? [/edit]

//.suayness

2006-04-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

ultra suayness today. when i thought yesterday was bad enough with the stupid jam.

math lect ken yao came to tell me that some tan guy weans to see me regarding my s paper attendance for term 1. turned out he's the hod for math. i was like. shit shit shit. danm suay kana caught liaoz. what a way to start the morning...

but anw didnt have time to find him after lect cos we had pe. or supposedly had pe. most of us went to have our break instead. hehe. so went to queue at the chicken rice stall. and i was like just behind shijun, and finally after 15 minutes of queuing shijun bought his food. and halfway thru our dear mrs goh did some apparation magic and appeared beside us, caught on the spot. damn. shijun got away cos his food was almost ready. and bong and i got taken back to the hall. what the... -.- and so we went up to mark our attendance. then mrs goh made us stand around for a while before releasing us 5 minutes later, since we were in our school u and can't do any pe anyway. dotz. oki fine so we went to queue again for our break. yay. *rolls eyes*

oki so great. went for gp after that and the class kana half hour of lecture blahs blahs. then after math tutorial i decided to go find that tan guy again. found him at the office, and he asked me about the 2 lectures i missed in term 1 (only 2? so few?). then was like cca stuff was busy blah blah. and obviously he wasn't happy about it and wanted me to drop the s paper on the spot. then i was like telling him i got catch up on tutorials and assignments ya ya (which i didn't really). then he was like really thinking hard about giving me a chance liaoz, when he went back to the attendance sheet, and realised that, while i skipped the 2nd and 3rd lectures, my 1st and 4th lecture's signatures are different! cos obviously i skipped the 1st one too and asked someone help me sign. stupid right? wah how suay man. then i was like cooking up some excuse like going to the lecture late and not able to sign that piece of paper, then after lecture too many people crowding around the paper so i asked my friend helped me sign. was like. dot dot dotx. blatantly lying. so he popped the last qns which almost killed me. "so how many assignments have you handed in so far?". wah!!! i was like... jia lat jia lat... so based on gut feeling and what i remembered, i said 2. think it was the correct answer so he got nothing to say. hahaha. saved myself in the end. what a close shave. but there goes anymore chance to miss math s, cos i think he would check on me every now and then liaoz. -.-

anyway after chem tutorial i was like still thinking about whether or not to go for training. and when i finally decided to go down to the range, the teacher said the range would close at 5.20pm. and i reached there at 5pm... -.-

seriously if tomorrow's also like that i might as well quit school. hahahahahaha.

//.jam

2006-04-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

went home at 130pm to take a short nap. cos chem s starts at 530pm. and i overslept. as usual. and ended up i couldnt have a proper dinner (which i was supposed to since i went home between lessons), and starved throughout chem s lecture. yeew.

and next monday we're getting that old lady. sobz. but anyway almost kana called up for question today. tt woman said "05S66..." i was like shit shit shit shit shit! then she called weishu. haha. its like 50-50 chance of calling me (since only 2 ppl take chem s from my class). haha. okie so maybe my day wasn't so bad after all.

and then that woman released us early! yay. 715pm left school liaoz. thought can have earlier dinner (hmph.) and sleep.

guess what? a stupid tree chose to fall today and jam up the whole place. but nearly 8 i just went past tessarina, which is really close to school btw. and the bus was moving at a rate of 1cm per minute. damn it.

so chose to alight and walk all the way down. saw liangcheng and jessie and we took the same bus, at the shell station. -.- and i reached home much late than last week. 915pm. a jolly well 2 hours to get home. what an early dinner. -.- eeps.

and yes ame lao ma. its xinG xinG. haha. u as bad as my lao ba. hahaha.

this is my 164th post since jan 05. is that a lot? woots.

i watched the video heng wei made for us! (finally...) and its really very nice. =) wah realised its been almost a month since i last look at hwachong at night, with the yellow-orange (huangcheng!) lights shining along the b block corridors, the lep staff room, the dim lights of pai xi area, sprinting back and forth from amphi to paixi area etc. and of course strolling down that slope on the way to the gate. taking the bus 67 alone, thinking of the proposal to update at home (hmph)... realised elections last sat really put a fullstop to our huangcheng life. yeah. the only thing im left with is that SM report (which i don't think we'll start work on it soon). haha.

reminising...

//.hightea

2006-04-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

yay. wad a long weekend.

quite a fulfilling one i would say. no choice but to mug like mad on friday. good friday. -.- finished up gp, math, phy and chem. phew phew. but was quite slack cos brother's friends came over. so was slacking around, and also playing with my irritating but cute (like me!) nephew. haha.

saturday was nice. morning went down to the mind cafe at boat quay for high tea session with highfive people. it was nice. got to know some hwachong people (whose names, as usual, i forgot) bleah. then also met new friends like sarah, chung ting, trisha, eugene, fong yao, justine, and the perfectionistic shu yan. haha. remembered these names cos we're in a group for the dialogue. phew. nice to find people who share the same wavelength as me. haha. but don't know if we're accepted yet, wait till the camp ba. but anw got to met up with bryant they all again. and i actually found someone who's shorter than bryant!!! can't believe in manzzz.

after that went to school for elections. yay. the results are quite satisfactory. =) huangcheng is in good hands. and jia you yihui! you'll make a good sm! jia you j1s! im sure huangcheng 07 will be worth watching.

stoned at pld after that till quite late. wah. i miss that old place man. i promise myself that if im going to have a girlfriend the first place i would go with her is there. not that it's very nice. but i guess it's sort of unique. haha. sadly i didn't really went to kan 'xin xin'. haha. reminded me of the uv lights.

went to syc for the first time in don't know how many months today. but i guess the reason for going them from now onwards is mainly to find a place to study. haha. not that im very productive. oops! got stuck in don't know how many questions. and i hate integration. but that's beside the point. haha. going there again next week i guess.

oh ya, on the way out this morning i passed by a house on the first floor of a flat nearby. apparently the resident don't wish to invest on decorations stuff, cos he hung a decoration made up of pirated VCDs strung together in some pattern (which doesn't look attractive), and outside his door! lol. that's like telling the whole world "i support piracy"]

wahahahaha.

i hate people who take friendships for granted.

//.faith

2006-04-14T13:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes i ask myself if im convinced at all. and many a times i find myself not. even the people around me, some of them are active people, don't know what to believe in. what has been the driving force for the past 1 year, is now a had-been. and im left with nothing to keep myself on track. yet i know this is all so wrong. is this just some obligation?

if it is, then am i doing the right thing now?

my sister just left for shanghai for a short trip this morning, along with her husband and aidan. the youngest child left in singapore for a week to bother our sleep. but i guess what matters most is the budding question asked some time ago. probably it's a choice to consider. after all, there's nothing holding me back anymore?

questions, questions, questions. all left unanswered. perhaps being blind and deaf is not a handicap, but a blessing instead.

//.ignorance

2006-04-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

i survived 2 days of s paper lectures. or more or less. i spent 10 seconds thinking how to spell 'survived' when i was typing this entry.

my mind is saturated. information overload you would call it. bleahzzz... so horrible. i hate school. go to school and stone everyday. shutting off things i don't want to hear or see, and that's everything mind you. and stoned with a blank mind till the end of the day.

my friend just MSN me. one of the rare few who calls me by wenhan. taken aback a bit.

ignorance is bliss. concluded after a brief conversation with germz today. but i think im heck-caring too much. so much so that im not in anywhere. but i guess i live in my own world hur hur. why be bothered with all these politics? children's game. i dont want to remember my hwachong life knowing i made myself miserable with all these politics. we'll have enough to deal with when we get to work. yay.

still deciding whether or not im free on friday. what a good one.

and i hate being taken for granted!

//.xiaohuangcheng

2006-04-09T20:04:00.000+08:00

xiaohuangcheng was more fun this year. =) haha. at least there wasn't hui wu, which i really dreaded a lot. elections are gonna be held this coming saturday. so its like... truly the end of our huangcheng journey le. kinda having mixed feelings. haha. think i just wanna be a J1 again and experience this 1 yr plus all over again.

speaking of which. met an old friend before xiao hc on sat. somehow or so i got reminded of the many events that happened last year. and somehow i found it stupid that little actions by people can cause so much impact. some lose faith. some are new friends, but never took up faith entirely. and forgotten after the whole event. and i guess its true. the damage to the friendships was so great, that we can't go back anymore. hah. i guess that's that. thought of it for quite some time. i haven't lost faith. i only lost faith in the people.

back to huangcheng. hopefully more from our ju can stay. zhengyou and yihui, and maybe chenyang and huixi. haha. huangcheng 07. hope it'll be a more successful story than this year's. though i'm already proud of our performance this year. =)

at the very least, there were very little politics. or almost none at all. =D

but yet. i found my own loss. zi ji de yi han. huang cheng de yi han. it was a waste. but like i said. the damage done cannot be undone. or can it?

you gain something, you lose something. i've gained a lot from huangcheng. but i've lost some too. but at least there's no regret. at least i'm not returning to the darkness elsewhere.

yup. kuai le jiu hao. rang wo wang ji guo qu. bei jiao wo zou hui tou lu. yin wei hui tou lu hen nan zou. hen gu dan.

i've decided to make myself busy this friday. it's a good friday after all. =)

//.shittified

2006-04-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

life's boring. going to school to stone and slack everyday. lolz. shld just stay at home and sleep.

yawns... so tired... wad a boring long day... haha. the only enjoyable thing is shooting. standing there for 3 hours and just shoot. woots.

praying hard for some miracle to happen this sat sia...

haha. and i think my words are just full of sarcasm. dun make me ur fren. i'll be damn irritating. hahz.

//.jiantao

2006-04-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

woots. missed the good old jian tao days. haha. sit tgt and gossip in whispers while others are talking. haha. oki not a very good example. but its been so long since the chou weis sit together for a meeting liaoz. will be our last one? sobz. and i had to leave early. but wells, think it ended on quite a happy note. =)

training was horrible. need to pia for the next two days so that i wont lose so disgracefully. haha. the nj people are crazy. haha. their scores are pretty scary. hehe. got a few tyco shots today. praying hard for more to come~ =D

i found some baby photos of myself! gee... didnt know i was so cute! =P

//.yay

2006-04-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

yay! my ears ok liao. but was telling my parents now i can't used to hearing properly. like... has been half deaf for almost 5 days already??

but anyway my nephew (youngest one) is so cute! fed him milk today and he fell asleep while i was too engrossed on the tv. haha. but as usual being the skilled me i handled him well. *beams* =) like hello~ his older brother was half fed by me. haha. using the bottle lar of course.

shooting starts, erm, i mean continues tomorrow. suddenly late nights again. 6pm to 9pm. goodness. but wells. must train liao. else will really sia suay. -_-"

another long and draggy day today. another... im no longer sure of what to wait for. sick and tired of this game. like hello... will they care?

yay. i need to mug. got piles of assignments waiting to be cleared and be piled on.

and someone from childcare called to ask me if i interested to volunteer and help! =D but then minimum 6 months attachment. i counted liao. will leave me with 0 days to prelims at the end of it. think i not so crazy lar... hmm...?

//.boringggggg

2006-04-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

boring day. and i think chem s is a crazy subject. every tutor is bent on making sure that we do our tutorials, and everyone of them is making us hand in assignments to them. apparently the tutors lack co-ordination among themselves, cos it's like we have about 3 waves of assignment in today's lecture. phew.

school sucks man. and i think im really leading such a shitty life. full of crap. and i don't know what people see me as anymore yeah. sometimes people can be really nice to you for an hour and then give you another kind of look in the next. like... hello?

feel like im being such a naive idiot.

//.tsktsk

2006-04-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog a lot of stuff. but too upset to liaoz.

anyways finished watching campus superstar. lol. hwachong's very own sia... 11+ pm when it ended, don't know how those peeps in school going home... haha... camp in school liaozzz...

hope can get half day off tml sia~ hopefulzzz~

somebody help me...

//.aprilfool

2006-04-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

lol. received a message from shooting captain: pls pass to fellow members, the entire club is excused 4 the 1st 2 periods 4 a buffet below the General Office on monday morning. Go tehre immed aft combined assembly.

my instant reply: serious? not april's fool right?

haha. got tricked a few times liao. heng this one is not. can skip chem tutorial. yay~! special thanks to double medalist vanessa and that silver medalist zhangjin. lol~ =)

oh wells. today's eventful one way or another. get out people. get out. get it?

//.yawn

2006-03-31T20:49:00.000+08:00

super duper boring day today. stoned at huisuo for 2 whole hours. oh wells. but that's beside the point. just another boring long day full of boring lessons. but im determined to start mugging. sheesh. and loy's civics tutorial about goal planning was stupid. what da chang jin... -.-

like it's really all my fault???

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get lost.

and i found out something else. argh. just had to stumbled upon this fact. i guess i didn't make the wrong move afterall.

//.eeps

2006-03-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

haven't been training for half a year. now there's this competition next sat. 2 trainings left. yay~ bound to diu lian wan.

went to see the doc for my ear thingy today. so ma fan. and so ex. and lied to mum about the price cos don't want her to pay too much. broke liaoz le. anyway my ear didn't get any much better. so irritating. must live with the ringing sound for days...

don't want to go tomorrow. nothing will make me go. hahaha.

today's a slack day. released at like... 12pm cos ms quek not here. hahaha! another slacky day tomorrow. council elections. hahaha. can still remember all those events that happened last year. it's been a year already. huangcheng 05. damuzhi. huangcheng 06. dengdaoni.

now my post-huangcheng nights are filled with tv viewings. yay. and its the same as before, tutorials will never be completed and i still sleep in class. haha~ think its just me, being slack. and im disliking andrew tan more and more. hmphz.

oh shit! i forgot about lost... -.-

//.reunion

2006-03-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

a mini reunion today. for the huangcheng peepz! haha. cos of some stupid gp practice paper which i have practically no heart for. anyway its great meeting these people after like 2 weeks of mugging and sleeping and stoning.

the blocks really threw us back to reality so quickly. talk about phd. i think it went away as quickly as it came. suddenly feel like doing huangcheng 06 once more. not like i love the many pages of proposal or cue sheets or scripts or what-have-yous. guess not many people can remember their college life in a way we do. laughters, late nights, tears, sweat (and sometimes blood), sense of achievement (and sometimes disappointment). most importantly, friendships. =)

school's starting tomorrow. bleach. huangcheng-less days. going to have 3 more terms of it. 30 more school weeks. yawnzzz.

mum asked me why im not going to activities that often anymore. simple reasons. no info, don't feel like going, and tired. haha. of course more lie underneath it. bleah. don't know how long this can last for anymore.

//.slack

2006-03-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

slacked the whole of today in front of the computer and ps 2. haha. and just realised monday got homework to hand up to pang pc. haiz. so screwed.

haha. nvm still got a sunday to work on these.

yawn... tired but not sleeping yet...

bie xiang tai duo.

//.outingzzz

2006-03-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

just came back from steamboat dinner with np squadmates. kinda long time never see them already. haha. oh wells. glad to be able to meet those friends again~

hah. just found out this discovery camp where i can go help out. anyone interested? haha. first two weeks of june. finding people to go with me sia. http://www.discovery-camp.com. sounds fun. teaching primary school kids and all. hahaha.

haiz. miss aceh life. hahax. though i just spent 2 weeks there? oh wells.

//.morephotos

2006-03-23T20:41:00.000+08:00

the end of blocks. unofficially. cos of the stupid gp make up on monday. oh wells. at least i don't have to worry about grades for a few more days??

i hate to stone. thats why i ended up sleeping. i would choose to sleep if the other option is to stone. haha. but anyway i spent almost 100 bucks today. went to buy JJ's album. don't ask me why, i just felt the urge to spend some money. and also went to develop 229 photos chosen from the CDs for the aceh trip. already quite selective, but still 200++ cost me close to 70 bucks lar. haha. oh wells. uploaded more photos onto the flickr website. should be appearing on the small little box on the right. though the pictures are small and tiny. hehe. but can always click to view anyways.

tomorrow. meeting up with the squadmates. hahax. long time no see le. kinda miss those rv days huh. just slack and play and hang around and talk. at least stoning in rv was better than stoning in hc.

oh ya. today's physics and yesterday's chem. can barely decide which is harder. apparently i barely passed my chem mcq. needless to say my papers 2 are like shit when i can'teven finish the paper and don't know what i'm writing half the time.

less than 9 months left as a hwachong student. the only thing left for us to do now: mug for the As. haha. and stone the rest of my time through.

wo dou bu dong zi ji zai xiang xie shen me le. hao luan, hao lei. zai xu yao yi ge peng you de bang mang de shi hou, da jia dou pao qu le na li? zai zhe ge hao da hao da de shi jie li, mei yi ge ren zhi shi na me de miao xiao. dan zai ni xing zhong de shi jie li, wo shi ge xiao ren wu ma? shi bu shi shuo you xie shi yi ran mei gai bian dao? na ni ne?

totally pointless entry. go see the photos lar.

//.shuang

2006-03-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

jin tian qu jian le tou fa. eek! hen nan kan. wei shen me hua chu bu rang wo men dai mao zi qu xue xiao?

jie dao le dian hua. hen shuang kuai de ju jue. ye mei wen zhe me duo. fang xia dian hua. ji xu du shu. ye bu shi shuo mei qu xiang. zhi shi... san ge duo yue mei you ren he jie chu, lian luo. wei shen me? ye xu shi yin wei wo tai mang le, ye lan de qu guan na me duo. yi ge ren zai yi qun ren dang zhong, hen rong yi jiu bei wang diao. ye xu wo de ren ji guan xi ye mei na me hao. suan le. deng dao you yi tian... zhen de you ren lai guan de shi hou, zai shuo ba.

ye hen lei le. lei de tou bu guo qi lai. xian zai huang cheng dou jie shu le, ye gai shi shi jian rang wo qu xiang shou xin xian kong qi. ha ha. jin nian hui kao lo, mei shi jian qu zuo qi ta shi le la. you xie shi hai shi bie qu xiang tai duo. yao qu shou shi na xie shou sun de you yi suo liu xia lai de can hai, hen lei ren de. dan dui ling yi jian shi, que shi hai you qi dai. wen ti zai yu, zhe shi jie shang hen duo hen duo shi qing dou shi chuan cha zai yi qi de. suo yi... zui hou hai shi bie guan suan le. wo zi ji ye hen luan. ni zai xiang xie shen me? ni men zai xiang xie shen me? wo you zai xiang xie shen me?

xing nian. hen xiang fang qi. dui. yin wei hen jian dan de shuo, wo zhen de fang qi de hua, hui you ren zai hu ma? ni men hui ma?

//.blocks

2006-03-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

1 week of holidays. poof. just like that. this time last week i was still sound asleep, catching up with all the Zs i've lost over the past 3 months doing huangcheng. eeps!

blocks are here. my econs was totally screwed. essay i wrote ten sentences and found myself having nothing to write, when others could tell me there's loads to write for the essays. eeps. oh wells.

spent some time editing the html in my blog. still the perfectionist me. haha. changed the way my media players appear on the right. and when to put in the lyrics. and i found this indonesian song by peter pan which the coasters like a lot while we're in aceh! yay. hahax. really nice song sia~ though i don't know the meaning of the lyrics. oops!

tomorrow rest day. go cut hair. mug chem. then heck it, and start a bit on physics?? or slack again?? or play with my nephew... haha. he tried to stop me from sleeping again. just ignored him cos i was simply too tired anyway.

oh wells. watched campus superstar. must admit hc's very own can really sing well. haha. think he'll make it to the finals and probably win. results out in half hour's time anyway. going spend the rest of my time after this entry looking through some nus courses. realised the huangcheng people all missed out on the open houses! eeps! haha.

getting late le. goodnite peepz~!

//.newlook

2006-03-17T19:17:00.000+08:00

ya ya. know what you guys are going to say. fancy me having the time to change the layout when blocks are a few days away. and i only realised it's seriously less than 3 days away to the first paper! gak! and i'm still mugging my first subject! double gak!

oh wells. but i like this layout. can choose what songs i want to hear too. the only problem is the jingles. they won't play if my bandwidth is exceeded. and don't blame me if the pictures are too small. i tried! =X

today is fryday! marking the end of the holidays real soon... =X was playing with my newphew after i did the blogskin. (what?! not studying again?!) decided to blog here before i really go to mug, cos i think my conversation with aidan (that's my nephew) is totally pointless.

i was lying down on the couch with my spectacles on the table, and about to fall asleep.

aidan comes climbing all over and me, and nudge me.

aidan: oi boonhan! wake up! wake up!
boonhan: what? i want to sleep. i tired. let me sleep.
aidan: no you cannot. wake up wake up!
boonhan: go away. i want to sleep
(and the above two lines carried on for quite some time before i gave up.)
boonhan: ok ok. why you don't want let me sleep?
aidan: cos i want to bully you.

-_-"

boonhan: you want to bully me?? you sure?? (i sat up)
aidan: ya. i want to tickle you.
(and so he started poking me. it took me less than 2 seconds to return the pokings)
aidan: ahh hahahahaha! stop stop!!! ahh hahahahaha!
boonhan: don't want! i thought you want to bully me?
aidan: ya! i want to bully you. not you bully me!

-_-"

(so i stopped)
aidan: okay now my turn to bully you.
boonhan: oh really? why you want to bully me?
aidan: (speechless)
boonhan: why you want to bully me?
aidan: cos... i want to bully you!

-_-"

(and this pointless coversation just carried on. and i just carried on to poke him in the ticklish area non-stop. screams and laughters came. then he saw the spectacles on the table.)
aidan: what's that?
boonhan: spectacles
aidan: ooh... whose is that?
boonhan: mine... i took it off cos I WANT TO SLEEP!
aidan: orh. then cannot cannot. you must put it on!
boonhan: why??? (he was already putting in on for me)
aidan: so i can see you! yay!!

-_-"

i started playing with my handphone shortly after. and he ended up asking me about all those photographs and asking who's that who's this. and we ended up taking a photo of ourselves. =X

obviously i was in a half asleep mood.

then it was time for him to go home. his dad was here to pick him up downstairs. and so we rushed, he wore his shoes, i took his bags. and the pointless conversation continued.

aidan: boonhan must take me to ah gong's playground (the one at my house downstairs) ok?
boonhan: cannot. your daddy downstairs already. you go home tomorrow we play ok?
aidan: don't want... we play for 10 minutes first ok? daddy can wait
boonhan: cannot... daddy cannot wait. you ask daddy take you to his playground (the one at woodlands) ok?
aidan: don't want... i want ahgong's playground.
boonhan: why you want ahgong's playground?
aidan: cos i like the colour!
boonhan: ooh? the colour...!
aidan: ya! got red, yellow and brown! i like them!

-_-"

and the whole conversation downstairs ended up with his dad dragging him up to the car. poor soul. =P

anyway here i am showing you his brother's photo! a new born!!!

cute?? his name is dylan!!!

and before i end this entry to mug... here's a photo i took of myself and put as my display pic sometime last year as an attempt to cheer some of my friends up. to all those still mugging out there, hope it made your day!

so here it goes......

and then again...

ta-da!!!

happy mugging!

//.phd

2006-03-16T20:21:00.000+08:00

haha. it's settling in, but not so much.

think i've come to a stage when i'm so numb to everything that i can just put all these down and move on. so much for the post-something-depression. chingay, huangcheng 05, ndp 05, ycf, aceh trip... when it comes to huangcheng 06, 1 year and 3 months into my JC life... i'm just moving on, just so quickly.

now in the nothingness state. thinking of sourcing out for some childcare centres or special schools to help out. haha. think it's some meaningful job. taking care of kids. also time for me to pack up those memories. too many scattered around. bleah...

uploaded more photos onto my blog. photos are getting less. guess the most valuable ones are stuck in my head, refusing to go online. still thinking of what to do now... preparing for ns. erps. hahaha. about 7 months to the A levels. eeps! but there's still time to do what i want at least. lalalax. sick of studying already. can the exams don't come?

still can't believe it. huangcheng 06 is over so soon. oh wells. at least i can watch my first huangcheng from the audience seats next year. =)

//.huangcheng06

2006-03-14T09:33:00.000+08:00

黄城有最蓝的天空...
每片云都载着辛勤的成果
要你期待，让你感动
惊喜快乐还有梦
黄城陪你度过...

for the j2s, 7 months of tears. for the j1s, 3 months of sweat. and all these ended up with 15 minutes of xie mu.

it's not a matter of whether outsiders understood each of our plays. or whether they appreciate our efforts and hard work. it's the matter of friendships forged, the spirits we have, the times we spent together.

late nights, minimal sleep, and the tears and sweat. for the j2s, the last time we're experiencing huangcheng like this. next year on, we're viewing it from the audience seats.

对每一个黄城人来说，辛苦始终还是值得的.

and thanks to all those in the audience seats, who made the efforts to understand and appreciate our plays, and our efforts, and our tears and sweat.

and thanks for the hug =)

梦要追，岁月别留白
让黄城为你生活添色彩
飞起来，让你飞起来...
黄城绝对最精彩
黄城绝对最精彩...

//.bumping-in

2006-03-09T00:35:00.000+08:00

bump-in less than 8 hours away. the stress before this will be nothing compared to being in VT itself... -_-" wonder if this is true.

still waiting for the recordings and editing songs. bahx.

think i can't sleep tonight. =X